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chilimango commented on the post, dominant 7 months, 1 week ago
Some people like being dominant. I’m not sure that I do. It comes with a lot of responsibility. Jose acted dominant and it got him pretty far, but really he was in my control the whole time, so he overcompensated. […]
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chilimango commented on the post, stretcher 10 months ago
He was laid out on the stretcher, deader than dead. d-e-d. It finally killed him this time, mixing this with this and that with that, thinking he was invincible, not caring that he wasn’t, half-hoping that he […]
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chilimango commented on the post, earring 1 year, 1 month ago
She wore one gold earring, which glimmer in the soft sunlight. It was the first warm day of the season and the earring was as golden as the light that illuminated the world around them. The earring was a microcosm […]
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chilimango wrote about the word princess 1 year, 5 months ago
Listen, princess.
Should conjure up images of grace and beauty, but only conjures up images of bitchiness and snobbery.
I knew a girl names princess in middle school. I wonder if she acted like one.
I used to genuinely think I was a princess. As in literal royalty.
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chilimango wrote about the word skyline 1 year, 5 months ago
Serene. The city skyline is an image of development, of the future…but not of progress. But focus on that line…the actual skyline. Like the horizon, but man-made. Blue skies, clouds. hope. A whole other world in the thin imaginary line where cityscape meets sky. Mornings. Beauty. Pure.
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chilimango wrote about the word epiphany 1 year, 6 months ago
I had an epiphany to not argue with my own thought, because those are thoughts upon thoughts, which only lead to more thoughts. Step back from the thoughts. Don’t give them any energy, that’s just adding fuel to the fire. Don’t suppress the thoughts. Just gently withdraw your attention from them and let them be [...]
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chilimango wrote about the word castle 1 year, 7 months ago
A castle would protect me, is the first thing I thought of. Protect me from what, exactly? Why am I so afraid, all the time? I am realizing that all of my negative emotions stem from fear. Anxiety is a part of fear. Anger justifies my fear. It’s physical. I want to lock myself up [...]
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chilimango wrote about the word mutual 1 year, 7 months ago
I want to write about the word exhaustion. Because that is all I can feel.
Mutual. Symbiosis. The whole is greater than the sum of the parts.
I can still feel the way it makes me think. Which is normal I guess.
Mutual. Flow. Cooperation. Happiness. Serenity.
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chilimango wrote about the word spring 1 year, 7 months ago
spring is smells
of water and life
of newness
of freshness
of rain and flowers
but different rain
warm rain, happy rain
not cold, fall rain which is beautiful in its own way.
spring is what it is
it is life following death
and then death follows life again
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chilimango wrote about the word preoccupied 1 year, 7 months ago
I am always preoccupied. The spanish word for worried is preocupado. I’m previously occupied by whatever’s in the past or future, but never with what’s in the present. That’s what this last trip showed me. Magnifying glass. Life in HD. It makes you see yourself more clearly, and it showed me how fluid self-perceptions really [...]
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chilimango wrote about the word chance 1 year, 8 months ago
Give me another chance, he begged. It’s an old story. But not a chance this time. He wasn’t sorry. The only thing he was sorry about was not having a freeloading life anymore.
Not giving him another chance gave me the chance of a lifetime. Chance transference.
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chilimango wrote about the word secretary 1 year, 8 months ago
secretaries on mad men: sex symbols. Women who will do whatever you want, at your beck and call. bombshells, tight dresses, pouty red lips, perfect hair. Robots. Dolls. All of your needs met. stand-in wives. the 1960s were not so different from today.
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chilimango wrote about the word driving 1 year, 9 months ago
This job is driving me crazy she thought, as the 100th, literally 100th, person screamed at her for something that was not her fault. How is she supposed to continue being happy robot lady? This job used to be easy…and then the real work started. How is she supposed to draw boundaries and sympathize with [...]
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chilimango wrote about the word brick 1 year, 9 months ago
her gut felt as heavy as a brick, literally and figuratively, as she thought about the day ahead of her tomorrow. how is she supposed to do this job and not let it way her down? all she says all day is no. all people do is get angry at her. and then she goes [...]
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chilimango wrote about the word canvas 1 year, 9 months ago
canvases canvases. a person is a canvas an you project on them whatever bs impressions you have of them plus any judgments based on your own experience but that’s really not who they are at all. they don’t know you at all. she doesn’t know me at all. i hate it when people who are [...]
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chilimango wrote about the word bulb 1 year, 9 months ago
bulbs of garlic are delicious. there is something so comforting about garlic. it makes me feel more stable. it smells like home. garlic. little bulbs of hope. i want to write a sonnet for garlic. i feel bulbous for some reason. bulbasaur is a weird pokemon. i miss pokemon. a lot. on the bus, trading [...]
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chilimango wrote about the word lock 1 year, 9 months ago
lock it up and throw away the key. you don’t want it to hurt anyone else. you don’t want him to hurt you again. it may be tempting to have mercy but there’s no alternative. he exhausted all of the alternatives. you have to protect yourself. you have to lock him out of your life [...]
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chilimango wrote about the word manager 1 year, 9 months ago
I already wrote and then something glitched. I don’t know how to manage computers. I don’t know how to manage much, but I’m learning. I’m doing much better actually, just right now I’m a mess in this very moment but I’m doing much better. I try to manage everything, sometimes I just need to let [...]
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chilimango wrote about the word manager 1 year, 9 months ago
oh boy, managers. I don’t even know. The first thing I thought of obviously is work. My old manager was a bitch. I use that word sparingly so when I do use it you know I mean it. She was such a bitch. Who fires someone for playing 2 minutes of solitaire? Fuck her. People [...]
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chilimango wrote about the word level 1 year, 9 months ago
take it to the next level, that’s what we’re always told. what does that even mean? can you be level-headed and take it to the next level? Or should you take it to the next level of level-headedness? You know when you say a word over and over and it starts to sound strange, there’s [...]
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