In the upper depths of my heart, there still lies questions unanswered.
Seeing you brings these all to the front and I remember where I started.
I am no longer that girl.
I find comfort in myself these days.
Of course I can reach out to others, as I do often.
However, half the comfort is knowing that I can be comfortable with myself.
I am growing to absolutely love my time I […]
I set it in motion. The process has begun. It has been a long time coming, but I am finally free. Free of the heartache and of the choices I wish to not remember. I am becoming me one day at a time. It is a motion […]
It gives me chills.
To see him again.
See him standing there.. before he notices my arrival.
And for that split second when our eyes meet, there is no distance between past and present.
All is undone. […]
Don’t dwell on the past. Don’t dwell on what cannot or should not be changed. Do not dwell on something that truly will not affect you 5 years from now. Think of it? Yes. Measure it. Feel it. Whatever you must. […]
Minute. You caused a minute tear in my heart. There was a minute there that I thought that minute tear might break me apart. But that minute passed and I made it past that minute of my life where you controlled […]
Something I need. I have love. I have family, friends, and happiness. I have a roof over my head and food on the table. But most of all, I have the air in my lungs. The only necessity for life. You just have to live.
I am on a quest to find myself.
To find my destiny.
To find who I am supposed to be in this crazy world.
Where I fit.
Where I will make a difference.
I am on a quest into the unknown.
The depths of my own […]
It lights up.
She sits and waits.
It lights up again.
She does not answer.
He can wait on me tonight, she thinks.
He can sit and wonder.
He doesn’t deserve to have this of me.
He deserves none of me. […]
There is a pile of information I have to take in for this last final. But this pile stands between me and graduation. Me and real life. Me and my future. Sometimes I’m not sure I wish this pile to disappear.. It’s […]
I hate insects. They give me a terribly funny feeling in my nose whenever they are around. It’s like I am allergic to their presence. Forced to go incompetent in their mere proximity. Insects are a lot like exes.
I disregard you. This is me casting you away. Away from my thoughts, my heart, my life. It has been a work in progress, but it is nearing completion. Soon I will no longer speak your name. That is my new goal. […]
I didn’t use my Groupon for a wine tasting. Missed opportunities. Graduation is approaching. I thought about him today. Leaving a familiar tasting annoyance in my mouth.
What is instrumental in what I think about others. ACTIONS. Actions always do speak louder than words. Proof. Talk is cheap. Wish I’d known that sooner.
I need an alibi. An alibi for where I was when I fell for you. Because I didn’t fall as myself. I fell stupidly as someone else. I look back and I can’t explain who I was the past two years. Yet, the alibi for my […]