• clayton commented on the post, husband 3 months, 2 weeks ago

    is he mine or hers? or does he belong only to himself? what does the title mean in the modern era? belonging, ownership, or commitment?

  • clayton wrote about the word integrity 2 years, 1 month ago

    overused, and generally not in a meaningful way. a word that has taken on a politically disingenuous connotation.

  • clayton wrote about the word: optimism 2 years, 5 months ago

    a leap of faith or a leap into the abyss. we all do it, make this choice. belief is universal. optimism and cynicism are not so different from each other. both destroy and create. both can be cruel or empowering. and counter-intuitively, they are often simultaneous like the strictly religious who live by a narrow [...]

  • clayton wrote about the word sheet 2 years, 7 months ago

    thin, crisp linen. cool when hot, scratchy on tender thighs. linen is not appropriate for babies and the very old. then flannel sheets, soft and rolled, quiet, warm.

  • clayton wrote about the word chatter 2 years, 7 months ago

    Moaning punctuated by news, sports, the constant chatter of the television, white noise to drown the pain of a body fading away. A slow natural death, it turns out, is quite painful.

  • not usually a verb, but a title given to someone who is more than just not on your mind, but lost, wayward, marginalized, and alone. but, not really forgotten. the really Forgotten have ceased to exist and cannot garner notice. no, these are the underdogs who have our sympathy and who are soon to be [...]

  • clayton wrote about the word order 2 years, 10 months ago

    a two-edged sword. like discrimination, necessary for things to function well, but stands against the necessary organic, the wild, against the primal chaos from which it sprung.

  • clayton wrote about the word tide 2 years, 11 months ago

    a pulse, salty, in my veins. coming and going as it has for all my ancestors. it is a clock of the ages pulsing in my body. a tide of evolution.

  • clayton wrote about the word waltz 2 years, 11 months ago

    off-kilter, assymetric balance. could be wobbly or graceful. military cultures produce music in 4′s. easy-going island cultures make music in 3′s, 6′s, and polymetrics.

  • clayton wrote about the word revolt 2 years, 11 months ago

    tiresome, this word. it feels like something that has been tried already, too many times to count. it’s never something with a beginning or end, just a pulse of activitiy that people fool themselves into believing is new and distinct.

  • clayton wrote about the word without 2 years, 11 months ago

    without a schedule i am poor but free to run barefoot. i can’t afford the doctor to remove the thorn. my feet are beautifully sculpted by the sandy beach. they are sore from the hot asphalt.

  • clayton wrote about the word leap 2 years, 11 months ago

    the water has a film on it. should I leap in? i can’t see past the surface. is this faith I require, or something else? I know what will happen when I jump.

  • clayton wrote about the word matching 2 years, 11 months ago

    socks, ties, pants, and shoes. it’s so much better to be a couple that actually looks good when they start to dress alike. gay boys match.

  • clayton wrote about the word fallout 2 years, 11 months ago

    fall out and down in the winter snow, a pale ash that only resembles frozen water. it’s frozen soul, the only part of us left after the final conclusion, the inevitable act of self-destruction contained within all of us, that given enough time, we will touch. it will flower. it must come to pass.

  • clayton wrote about the word driven 2 years, 11 months ago

    north on the 101 past Point Mugu. i feel green and serene, my partner driving takes the stress off. beautiful to relinquish control. slow.

  • clayton wrote about the word smiles 2 years, 11 months ago

    people at the front door are smiling at me. i do not know them. one of them has high cheekbones which makes me think she is smiling after she has stopped. it is inappropriate. she should not be smiling right now.

  • clayton became a registered member 2 years, 11 months ago