I would love to give you all the full truth. To break down your walls of ignorance that have been built up around you… to show you how much of a lie your relationships are. You all tell me your lies and swear me to secrecy, leaving me holding onto your guilt. Completely oblivious to the guilt and lies I quietly hold onto myself. Truthfully, I love you too much to open you up to the pain that the truth will bring. I’m protecting you and in a way protecting myself too. My silence holds us all together. For now. Partly, I fear my own life and relationships are filled with just as many painful, covered-up lies that are hidden away from me.