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Jessie Tea wrote about the word deserve 1 year, 5 months ago
I deserve to be treated better. I guess people must believe that I deserve to be let off softly, that I’m sensitive. I’ll admit, I’m sensitive, but I over analyze by such a large margin I’ll be hurt any way it goes. Plus, if you just stop things I’ll stop freaking out. So yeah, my [...]
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Jessie Tea wrote about the word artistry 1 year, 7 months ago
Some say NaNoWriMo ignores artistry. I don’t think this is true. This isn’t where I want to go with this.
Artistry can mean many things. The artistry required in matters of the heart is what I must learn now. This isn’t helping me now, but I’ll keep typing. I need to write a song.
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Jessie Tea wrote about the word sinking 1 year, 9 months ago
Sinking. I am sinking into my nostalgia. Barcelona was such a high that now everything feels like shit. I guess that’s like hard drugs. Hm. Fun is highly addictive then I guess. I really hate what I’m writing right now but I’m in too much pain to care. I miss them.
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Jessie Tea wrote about the word rise 1 year, 11 months ago
I’m not an early riser. I guess I could be considered one to “rise to the occasion”. I don’t know. I don’t think I rise much. I excel and some thing, sure, but I don’t think I rise.
this is crappy and I’m sorry.
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Jessie Tea wrote about the word teacher 1 year, 11 months ago
Today was the last time I saw my teachers for a while. My hard-exterior english teacher gave me a big hug and told me he’d miss having me in his class. I hope that means I’m getting an A. I’m glad I won’t be seeing another (regular) teacher for a while now……… although I will [...]
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Jessie Tea wrote about the word corner 1 year, 11 months ago
I learned two ways to say corner (for three different meanings) in spanish today. One was on my final, even though only the other one had been taught in class (I had a leg up because my dad taught me the other one). I feel like I’m stuck in a corner. My school is a [...]
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Jessie Tea wrote about the word forgetting 1 year, 11 months ago
Who picks these words and where are they hiding in my room? I’m forgetting him. I’m attempting to forget him. I’ll try my best. It’s not working. I’m not good at forgetting. That’s what makes me so smart. I remember. Him on the other hand, he’s good at forgetting. I mean, you must be to [...]
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Jessie Tea wrote about the word painted 1 year, 11 months ago
I painted my nails crackled last night. Cracked like my heart. I’m reminded of a song I liked (but hid from my friends) in the seventh grade. Potential Breakup Song by Aly and AJ. He forgot my birthday, that’s why. I’m not even sure he forgot. He just didn’t care. Highly ironic, considering I saw [...]
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Jessie Tea wrote about the word plaid 1 year, 11 months ago
Hmm. I saw a plaid skirt today. I would have bought it if it wasn’t so thick and itchy. I had plaid shorts in the sixth grade…… god were those a mistake! Plaid always seems to be a really good decision or a really shitty one. Depends on the particulars I guess. Ehh, not much [...]
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Jessie Tea wrote about the word chalkboard 1 year, 11 months ago
I saw a new chalkboard today. I see chalkboards daily (well, M-F) but I never realized that I never see a different one. It’s been the same chalkboards for years. Today I took the SAT at a nearby school. I saw a new chalkboard. There was nothing truly different about said chalkboard, but it stood [...]
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Jessie Tea wrote about the word radio 1 year, 11 months ago
I hate the real radio. Terrestrial radio my mom calls it. I enjoy last.fm and such though. The real radio never seems to capture my feelings in the moment, like music is supposed to do. I’d rather play DJ myself. With one exception. Gorilla radio. Lunch would be boring and unbearable without hearing perfect mood [...]
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Jessie Tea wrote about the word limo 1 year, 11 months ago
I’ve never ridden in a limo. They seem fairly silly. Like, “we’re so cool we’re sitting in a really long car!” I don’t see the reasoning behind that. I’d rather walk hand in hand, or sit side by side, driving ourselves in whatever car happens to be ours. I’d rather be independent.
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Jessie Tea wrote about the word backpack 1 year, 11 months ago
I’m almost done with mine. My backpack that is. After months of having it constantly at my side, physically pulling me down, it’s almost time for it to take a break. It’s strange that backpacks spend their time full of knowledge, like a holding pen for transfer into our minds. They play such an important [...]
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Jessie Tea wrote about the word montage 1 year, 11 months ago
A montage of memories. His breath on the back of my neck as he asked me a question and praised me for my efforts. The look he gave me when he realized he had a chance with me (his eyes brightened tremendously). Our talks. Our texts. Our facebook chats. Coming home to work on my [...]
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Jessie Tea wrote about the word remember 1 year, 12 months ago
That is all I can do. Remembering is just like a form of torture. You can remember almost anything, but there is absolutely nothing you can do about it. Remember how you could have hugged him more, or run off and kissed him? Well you didn’t! Remember how you could have not ruined your parents [...]
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Jessie Tea wrote about the word sideburns 1 year, 12 months ago
Sideburns. Hm, for once something completely unrelated to my feelings right now. That in itself is rather fitting. I think I’m in major denial about the happenings of the past few weeks, but I think while I’m still in school that’s a good thing. Back to the topic, this makes me think of Flight of [...]
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Jessie Tea wrote about the word despair 1 year, 12 months ago
Oh how I can relate to despair. I feel despair for myself most of all. I am forever alone. In everything. I have no partner for the history project, no friends, and no significant other. All I want is to be loved, or even lusted for, but no, I can’t be.
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Jessie Tea wrote about the word mint 1 year, 12 months ago
I take a bite of the mint chip cliff bar that’s been passed around. Each person is telling whether or not they think it tastes like toothpaste. I think it does. So does he. I think to myself, “At least we’ll have fresh breath for the aquarium”. I was wrong. Though my breath was rather [...]
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Jessie Tea wrote about the word canteen 1 year, 12 months ago
A Klean Canteen. It reads “plastics are forever”. I sip from it as I see him for the first time. I sip from it as I see him for the last time. He sits next to me, we talk. He whispers a question in my right ear. He likes me, I can tell. He still [...]
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