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jenna commented on the post, camera 9 months, 3 weeks ago
the camera is the killer. the pictures stained in sun and a love that is no more. i can’t look through the lense of our love anymore. I must put it down. I can not look at our pictures and long for the glassy […]
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jenna commented on the post, orbit 1 year, 3 months ago
We are out of orbit.
My atmosphere has combusted.
Truly apart.
Circumnavigativing my own despair.
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jenna wrote about the word destruction 1 year, 9 months ago
Why do I yearn for construction sites
hard hats
yellow boots
vacancy
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jenna wrote about the word honest 1 year, 10 months ago
To be honest, one hundred percent no lies, I haven’t been very honest with myself. If I could pull myself open and really dig in for the good stuff, maybe I would get out of this delusional haze. RIght now I have a love that is swallowing and severe and in about 2 months this [...]
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jenna wrote about the word station 1 year, 11 months ago
Within the gold of grand central
I thought of us in your barn
my legs tightly bound in yours
my heart dripping with the glow of the tv
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jenna wrote about the word pretzel 2 years ago
Pretzels in pink clear bowls on wooden coffee tables on grainy cream carpet against the floor of some random basement. We are so young. I am holding this in my strong steadfast way. You just don’t get it. Not yet.
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jenna wrote about the word tempted 2 years ago
i am tempted to fall back into the sadness.
i love the dreaded shadowy halls.
i am already listening to the acoustic tear drops of my old life
trying to stir up some of the old debris.
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jenna wrote about the word intersection 2 years ago
I am at the strangest intersection right now. Part of me sees that this whole thing is blinking blaring beating heating red. but my heart is this galloping riocheting msucle that calls for green. it senses green. you are the car speeding ahead of em and i just want to be near you.
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jenna wrote about the word success 2 years, 1 month ago
is my success waiting for me at the top of that black platform? have i yet to endure the glitter? the one time I gave, you gave up. you are gone. so frighteningly gone.
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jenna wrote about the word trusted 2 years, 1 month ago
I trusted myself to move me into the next direction.
But I am still here.
I am screwed and so sad.
I hate the way it turned out. -
jenna wrote about the word woven 2 years, 2 months ago
My sadness is woven into my wiry nets of heart. My sadness is integrated. It is in the cold air bursting through the pipes. the sound of a siren miles away. The feeling of watching and feeling seperate. The head on the pine floor. The words you wrote months and months ago that I am [...]
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jenna wrote about the word however 2 years, 2 months ago
I am okay in the most concise form. I am okay. However, I should be feeling great. I should be basking and sinking and seeping. But the shudders under my skull are temporarily locked shut. It is tough for me to relate whats going on outside to what is going on inside
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jenna wrote about the word approach 2 years, 2 months ago
what an interesting approach to the whole situation. drive by with your hand sticking out and that stupid grin. pretend like there was nothing ever planted. just keep smiling and asking me about my play. do not address the tension, the static that inebriates me just keep being you. and ill be me. i suppose [...]
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jenna wrote about the word whole 2 years, 2 months ago
the whole of me. is still sore and sullen. the whole of me is raw and ravaged and biten and biting the whole of me is sheepish and disintegrated the whole of me is shiny and scintalliting the whole of me in blue jeans and blue tatters the whole of me is sick with the [...]
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jenna wrote about the word shape 2 years, 2 months ago
The shape it has all taken. the corners i have cut. i like to say they are with your cruel glittery scissors. but actually this one is all me.
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jenna wrote about the word gym 2 years, 2 months ago
I saw you at the gym. Basketball sneakers and shoulders hunched in. I stared into your face flustered and finagling for words to fill our mini space. I was wearing this frayed tie dyed shirt and all I wanted to do cover my red cheeks. You spoke to me, really speaking, if that makes any [...]
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jenna wrote about the word heels 2 years, 2 months ago
Those black heels. With the buckle. They hold me high above the world. they have the salt from that night where the snow had seeped into sidewalks. They hold the dust from that sparkling night i kicked my feet up on your knees. and of course our night. the blowing magic. my heels held me [...]
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jenna wrote about the word wondered 2 years, 2 months ago
It started with a simpleness. I simply wondered what it would be like.
I made a decision. A conscious decision. blood and burning and beginnings and I am still here. In the red sweatshirt. With the redness and the pins and pains of someone else. -
jenna wrote about the word bee 2 years, 2 months ago
She is bee. I am lena. Together we form something. I feel her all the time, buzzing in our laughter. She is my best friend. Through and through up and down. Soil to earth, stem to flower, nectar to bee.
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jenna wrote about the word almost 2 years, 2 months ago
almost. we almost kissed. we almost locked our lives into one. we almost walked straight into a starry eyed sunshiney oblivion. We almost were this billowing big thing. We almost overcame her. Almost. You are the largest almost. The almost that certainly meant the most but could not withstand. The whole of it, the all [...]
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