• L.V.Newc commented on the post, mention 2 years ago

    why won’t you mention all that’s good about me why is it one criticism after another why do I focus so much on these mentions of criticism than on all of the wonderful things that you say and do? if I mention that I have been hurt before will that explain things or is that a derivative excuse?

  • L.V.Newc commented on the post, stillness 2 years, 2 months ago

    how can I abide the stillness when it is not in concert with the trees? how can I be still in this dim, stale apartment full of things in want of a home? how can I move from here when I cannot breathe? (I must […]

  • L.V.Newc commented on the post, statement 2 years, 4 months ago

    I make a statement you do not necessarily agree. If I agree with the statement and you do not agree with the statement this is a source of consternation for me. Likewise I would imagine that if you make a […]

  • L.V.Newc commented on the post, icing 2 years, 4 months ago

    The icing on the cake is really the only part that I can eat these days, what with recently discovering that I am yet another member of the fallen stricken by gluten. Yet too much sugar gives me a headache too […]

  • I am afraid that because I did not properly follow instructions I will not be allowed in. At the same time I feel that I was given competing instructions. The instructions of my social enclave dictate that I […]

  • L.V.Newc commented on the post, crew 2 years, 4 months ago

    I cannot think about this word because all I can think about are these lyrics, these beautiful melodies and “I’d be lying if I didn’t tell you I’m afraid of dying.” Mostly, I’m afraid of dying before I have […]

  • L.V.Newc commented on the post, auxiliary 2 years, 4 months ago

    I am watching the tour de france from the couch while my boyfriend and I browse the internet on separate laptop. On the one hand our company is auxiliary, which is a synonym for “inconsequential” or “ultimately, […]

  • L.V.Newc commented on the post, turbine 2 years, 4 months ago

    perhaps the trouble is that I spend too much time writing about men. I am a turbine whirling round and round, always standing in the same place. would that these windmills could cartwheel away through the fields, […]

  • L.V.Newc commented on the post, bucket 2 years, 4 months ago

    don’t think. just write. I am in a bucket with water over my head. it is a very big bucket. I believe in following my heart only my heart isn’t really showing me a way right now. not true: it shows A way; it shows […]

  • L.V.Newc commented on the post, modem 2 years, 4 months ago

    the modem starts the computer, no– it is the other way around. the computer starts the modem; without the computer the modem does not work; Lord God I hope that one human can work without another human because I […]

  • L.V.Newc commented on the post, motion 2 years, 4 months ago

    too much motion hurts me [yet] [still] I am addicted to motion. I used to run away now I mostly run in place. though my lung aches, though my legs ache, though I am tired of struggling to breathe. still I am […]

  • L.V.Newc commented on the post, chills 2 years, 4 months ago

    yes, I have chills. there is thunder outside and I am thinking about leaving him. meanwhile He hasn’t called and I’m wondering if I’m a terrible person at the same time that I’m too tired to care any more. […]

  • L.V.Newc commented on the post, saturday 2 years, 4 months ago

    today is not. saturday. tomorrow is saturday though by tomorrow tomorrow will be sunday. it could take a lifetime to wrap your head around. ironically, you don’t need to. saturday could just as well be sabado, or […]

  • I am not sure that my body is configured right. When I was twelve I couldn’t figure out how to use a tampon and though I have since discovered that I do, in fact, “have a hole in the right place,” I still have […]

  • L.V.Newc commented on the post, distributor 2 years, 5 months ago

    the truck drove by, slow, slimy, eyes eating their way up to in between my legs. I felt naked, and wretched, though I wore long pants and socks as I walked, though it was the middle of July.

  • L.V.Newc commented on the post, seeds 2 years, 5 months ago

    have the seeds where to plant them. true the right conditions are hard to find but they do exist and as far as I can see there are a lot of viable options. unfortunately I have fewer seeds than there are locations […]

  • L.V.Newc commented on the post, minute 2 years, 5 months ago

    just a minute please then I’ll be ready to go. right now, in this minute– the minute before the minute in which I will be ready to go– I am feeling so tired. Too tired, in fact, to go. But this minute will be […]

  • L.V.Newc commented on the post, fractures 2 years, 5 months ago

    oh, how perfect, oh, how timely. cracks in my heart-sidewalk. line breaks in his. I am sorry darling I didn’t mean to hurt you. Darling can’t you see that you have placed before me an impossible choice? That I […]

  • L.V.Newc commented on the post, cap 2 years, 5 months ago

    caps capstone capitalize capitalization why is it so hard to spell? what if I cannot capitalize on this opportunity because you do not want to go even though I want to go because it is a wonderful opportunity on […]

  • L.V.Newc commented on the post, necessity 2 years, 5 months ago

    stress is not a necessity in my life, though it feels that way sometimes, though I feel lit to be so. perhaps it is not feeling but the covering up of feelings that produces such dedication to this idea of stress […]