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Ashley wrote about the word discovery 1 year, 9 months ago
It was my first time camping, and I was given the amazing privilege of exploring on my own. My twelve year old mind was flying with the possibilities this entailed. I discovered my own private little island, with white butterflies everywhere. They landed all over me, and I closed my eyes and felt that my [...]
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Ashley wrote about the word answers 1 year, 9 months ago
I was always looking for the whys of the world; why was I born into this turmoil, why didn’t I fit in with the others, why was everything so much harder for me? People went through their social interactions with ease, breezed past me with far more elegance than I would ever have. I never [...]
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Ashley posted an update: 1 year, 9 months ago
You have broken me all the way down. You’ll be the last, you’ll see. And what chance have we got when you missed every shot for me? And in the morning when you turn in, I’ll be out of reach. And in the darkness when you find this, I’ll be far to sea.
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Ashley wrote about the word elastic 1 year, 9 months ago
The rubber band snaps back, always dependable, and I am left to my own amusement. I snap it endlessly; it pounds against my wrist, leaves its mark. This useless elastic band is making more of a mark than I am, though it will fade away in moments. I sit in a crowded room completely alone [...]
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Ashley wrote about the word lightning 1 year, 10 months ago
There are always promises. Promises to be there, promises I believed in. Always. Lightning flashes briefly and illuminates the night, but if you’re not looking it’s the thunder that tells you it’s there. I wasn’t looking, I didn’t see until the sound rang in my hears. White noise, static, as expected. Who was I to [...]
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Ashley posted an update: 2 years ago
The clouds in your eyes, down your face they pour. Won’t you be the new one, burn to shine? I take the blue ones every time. Walk me down your broken line. All you have to do is cry. Hush my baby now, your talking is just noise and won’t lay me down amongst your toys in a room where I can take no more.
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Ashley wrote about the word mole 2 years ago
He wrote on the board that a mole was 6.02×10 to the 23rd power. I didn’t care. I never did. Wasn’t that why I had taken a seat in the back of the room? No, it had been to sit behind him. And how had my priorities changed throughout the year that I stopped watching [...]
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Ashley posted an update: 2 years ago
Oh, tell me it’s not over now. I can change your mind somehow. I, I give it all, I trip and fall for you. And I hope you wouldn’t mind just one more try for something new. I need you, I need you. Don’t be shocked if I cry. You’ve changed me inside.
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Ashley wrote about the word console 2 years ago
I was always the one people called when they were crying. It was always a mystery to me, for I’m not particularly warm, or bright, and I never have good advice at hand. But so it happened. Males and females, friends and frenemies, calling in the afternoon or the middle of the night sobbing and [...]
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Ashley posted an update: 2 years ago
I came to see the light in my best friend. You seemed as happy as you’d ever been. My chance of being open was broken and now you’re Mrs. Him. My words they don’t come out right, but I’ll try to say I’m happy for you. I think I’m gonna take that drive. I want to give you something I’ve wanted to give you for years…my heart.
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Ashley wrote about the word crew 2 years ago
“We’re a crew,” he promised, extended his pinky to me. “Me, you, and all our friends. A crew. Remember when we learned that word? Crew.” We linked pinkies and shook, but I knew it wouldn’t last and he knew he didn’t mean it. We were at the end of elementary school, on the brink of [...]
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Ashley posted an update: 2 years ago
Fear not when, fear not why, fear not much while we’re alive. Life is for living not living uptight, see you somewhere up in the sky. Fear not die, I’ll be alive for a million years. Bye bye’s are not for legends, I’m forever young, my name shall survive.
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Ashley wrote about the word birth 2 years ago
Her birth was a moment I had waited for with annoyance for hours with a group of five who couldn’t stand each other. They left me, too young, waiting alone in the floor below the birthing level. It was quiet, that night, and you could hear the muffled sounds of new mothers screaming, could hear [...]
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Ashley wrote about the word waver 2 years ago
I waver on the simplest decisions and stand strong on the toughest. It is the way I always was. The questions that should have confused me or led me astray at some point, any point, are the ones which have always prompted me to hold my beliefs safe and firm. The easiest things, the choices [...]
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Ashley posted an update: 2 years ago
Wouldn’t it be nice if we were older? Then we wouldn’t have to wait so long. And wouldn’t it be nice to live together in the kind of world where we belong? You know it’s gonna make it that much better when we can say goodnight and stay together.
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Ashley wrote about the word heel 2 years ago
I cut the back of my heel while shaving; a regular mistake of mine so common that my family expected the bloody, dripping mess my foot was when I retreated from the shower. I remember one day, holding the razor and purposefully dragging it along the back of my foot. I didn’t think it through. [...]
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Ashley posted an update: 2 years ago
When I see your smile, tears run down my face, I can’t replace. And now that I’m stronger I’ve figured out how this would turns cold and breaks through my soul. And I know, I’ll find deep inside me, I can be the one. I will never let you fall, I’ll stand up with you forever. I’ll be there for you through it all, even if saving you sends me to heaven. It’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay.
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Ashley wrote about the word eyeliner 2 years ago
“It doesn’t hurt!” she lied, brandishing the stick at me. It took everything in me not to flinch away as she not-so-delicately dragged it along the line of my lower lashes. In five minutes, she managed to teach me a valuable lesson I had been lacking in. I had thought for all that time that [...]
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Ashley posted an update: 2 years ago
Curse my enemies forever. Let’s slit our wrists and burn down something beautiful. This desperation leaves me overjoyed, with fading lights that lead us past the lives that we destroyed. I listen to you cry, a cry for less attention, but both my hands are tied and I’m pushed into the deep end. I listen to you talk but talk is cheap, and my mouth is filled with blood from trying not to speak.
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Ashley wrote about the word camp 2 years ago
I always have been, always am, a solitary creature at camp. I set up my own things, and then I spend hours staring at the water, swimming though I hate it, hiking along the stream. The water calms me in ways nobody and nothing else can. I return to eat, and then I prefer not [...]
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Ashley @lifethatyouhate ?
active 1 year, 1 month ago
You have broken me all the way down. You’ll be the last, you’ll see. And what chance have we got when you missed every shot for me? And in the morning when you turn in, I’ll be out of reach. And in the darkness when you find this, I’ll be far to sea. View
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