• Holden commented on the post, auburn 1 week ago

    The day was auburn. A late-summer day that didn’t want to end. I leaned on the balcony railing, stuck my dress-shoed feet through the gaps and waited.

  • Holden commented on the post, celestial 1 week, 2 days ago

    Celestial bodies. They knew a longevity that outshone the longest-surviving archaeological finds. The sky gave Mike a comfort: no matter where he ended up, or where the Earth ended up, the stars would still be there, and they would still be beautiful, a sort of beauty that transcended subjectivity; comets would still be plummeting towards the sun and then turning forever away in hyperbolic escape. Astronomy was, to him, learning about the stuff that lasted.

  • Holden posted an update in the group Group logoSummer for forever 1 week, 4 days ago

    It’s the evening and my room is slowly inhaling lazy early-summer air through the screen window, drifting over my bed like a warm air mass. It’s these times, when summer is just starting, that you feel like it’ll last forever, and it’ll always feel this good. It’s like the beginnings of first love, just when you realize that you’re in love, when you haven’t been rejected yet, when you hope and imagine and expect that everything will turn out the best. It happened to coincide for me, the beginning of last summer. But summer goes on. The air turns more humid, you’re up at midnight, listening to cricket chirps and watching firefly glows. You wouldn’t want the air any cooler than it is, because it has the feel of summer to it. You know you’re in the middle of summer, you know you can calculate when the exact midpoint of summer is – but then, you’ll have ruined all the summers you have remaining, because you can’t fool yourself anymore, summer’s not half-over yet. But it passes, just like the summers before and the summers after.

  • Holden commented on the post, soap 1 week, 4 days ago

    Jane had more soap than she needed, and she had a mental database of them, in her head. She collected bars of soap from fancy hotels. At the bathroom of a rest stop or a restaurant she would smell the soap, and remember the places that used the same flavor. Pina colada, watermelon, strawberry banana, lemon mint, soft lavender, chocolate, even. She liked shaking the soap from the box, tracing the outlines of the logo (Dove, or Ivory, or Dial), lathering it on as warm mist filled the shower. She hated it when soap cracked, like land in a desert.

  • Holden commented on the post, dissolve 2 weeks, 4 days ago

    It had taken Thomas two weeks to find enough of the tiny scabroot plants, a whole day to grind their stubborn, granite-like bodies into powder. He carefully tipped them into the water; they flashed red as if saying good-bye, and then disappeared, no more than a dream.

  • Holden commented on the post, ensue 2 weeks, 5 days ago

    On the battlefield, love ensued. Wasn’t that what it was? People drove sharp implements into each other and blood, the liquid of passion, spurted out, a flowering red. Soldiers bellowed, passionately, and then were silenced, by peaceful sleep. And when it was all over you could see the ravages of love, thousands of bodies littering the ground, vultures attracted to the stench welling up like a warm thermal.

  • Holden commented on the post, enemies 3 weeks ago

    John had blocked off the bottom of his door with scrap wood, and still the little furry enemies slipped in, night after night. It was a daily battle. He vacuumed the floor, made sure nothing touched it: no bread crumbs, backpack, clothes, nonslippered feet. And in the morning there would be another dead rats in the trap.

    In the mornings he would put his gloves on, holding the trap away from his body, and dispose of it. Mona, who lived next door, who was always up early, would eye him like a stern nun as he passed by. Rats never bothered her. Because she told the mice not to (she insisted on calling them mice), and she never harmed animals, she said, ignoring John’s scientifically-minded protests. “Maybe you were a mouse, or will be on, in another life,” she said, “Have you thought about that?”

  • Holden commented on the post, crow 3 weeks ago

    Elena looked up at the crow, a stain of black against the blue sky, cawing its complaints against the chilly un-April weather. How she envied crows! To be despised by all gave you a kind of freedom; for her, if she tripped just a little bit, there would be eyes all around her, previous valedictorian and now still, somehow, clinging on to a 4.0 she suddenly didn’t care about maintaining anymore.

  • Holden commented on the post, electrocute 3 weeks, 2 days ago

    In middle school my not-friend Cory brought in a fake pack of gum. It had a metal part sticking out, and when you pulled it you got electrocuted.

  • Holden commented on the post, bowling 3 weeks, 4 days ago

    Why was it so hard to throw a ball in a straight line? Sheila should stay rigid for a second after the ball left her hand, and she would check that her arm extended in front of her–fingers still extended, as if holding an invisible bowling ball–was straight; her eyebrows would tensed, as if by concentration she could keep the bowl on track. But invariable it curled away, hit one or two at the edges.

  • Holden commented on the post, planter 3 weeks, 5 days ago

    Mr. Bernard saw himself as a planter. An unconventional fifth grade teacher in the relative freedom of a charter school, he led his students in weekly projects on biology, political activism, game design, ethnography, the list went on. His goal, he always felt, was more to foster inspiration and purpose rather than knowledge.

    It was always hard saying goodbye at the end of the school year. He planted the seeds of a hundred different flowers in his students’ minds, but he wouldn’t be around to see them blossom.

  • Holden commented on the post, cliffs 1 month ago

    Plink, plink. Josh kicked the little rocks, bouncing them against the “Danger, Stay Back” sign like a tennis player doing drills.

    “Josh, come on.” His mom, camera in hand, leaned against their van, door open.

    “Beeach,” Josh said, “You said we were going to the beach. Not these cliffs.” He gave a sideways soccer kick and spun and spun and a scree of rocks sailed through the little mouseholes in the fence.

  • Holden commented on the post, metro 1 month ago

    “This train is out of service.” To-be passenger eyes shift left to right like cameras hidden in the eyes of an immobile portrait. Hands-in-pockets. A guitar strums, and a single coin falls into the plastic collection box.

  • Holden commented on the post, cities 2 months ago

    I love the math majors. But I need someone who will do more than stand at a balcony and stare at the stars. I’ll be the one who does that: here, look up at all that beauty. He’ll be the one who puts his hand lightly at the back of my head: look down, Trianca. Look at all the lights in the city. He’ll take my hand and drag me down the stairs and say, “It’s called nightlife, Trianca.” I’ll say no but he won’t listen, and I’ll be glad he didn’t listen. Some things, you have to be forced to do.

  • Holden commented on the post, cities 2 months ago

    By day, the black buildings seem a dreary shelter against the winter. But at night, the spires light up against the night sky. You can’t help but watch the lights, feel in your gut some kind of triumph of man against nature.

  • Holden commented on the post, flames 2 months, 2 weeks ago

    Raising their fingertips against the bark. Aspiring to be more, destroying at the same time. I looked at the drawing, red melting into orange into yellow into sparks, an advance guard.

  • Holden commented on the post, sentenced 2 months, 3 weeks ago

    Sentenced again to the broken chair in the corner, James tattooed new vocabulary words (learned from his middle school friends) on the desk with a paper clip. It was a pattern now: someone came to close to him or looked at him wrong, he hit the offender with Lunch Box, and then he enjoyed the company of Broken Chair. Worksheets came to his desk, with holes for him to graffiti in, and they came back to him frowning in red marks.

    It got him used to his life, fifteen years down the line. All the little prison bricks his new friends, though they didn’t accept his graffiti as easily (no markers). Around then, the numbers started becoming his friends too. He couldn’t explain why, aliens who never quite liked him, but they jumped alive from his worksheet 365×12+366×3 days ago=5478, then forward in time, scrambled up in orderly lines in his mind. They were trying to get his attention: listen to us James. We’re your ticket out.

  • Holden commented on the post, knock 2 months, 3 weeks ago

    Even with the Fist on, he announced his presence by knocking. He swung his hand back, smiled, flexed his fingers, and delivered the traditional notice of visitation. Except of course, when his knuckles touched, the door splintered like glass from a bullet. His victim, upon hearing the sound, as if he knew he would be doomed, didn’t turn from his laptop screen. Just a faintest twitch of the lower thigh muscles, a finger frozen in a mouse click.

  • Holden commented on the post, bleeding 2 months, 3 weeks ago

    The times when you bleed the most aren’t necessarily the times you feel pain. You watch red cloud up a towel, and feel worried. Why are we so fragile against small, sharp things?

  • Holden commented on the post, startled 2 months, 3 weeks ago

    Eep! she would say when she walked in the bathroom door as someone else was just on her way out. When John closed the window in calculus class by releasing the latch and letting it free-fall, her hands flew towards her ear before the bang, shielding it from imagined shrapnel. Sam, who threw snowballs at everyone, didn’t throw snowballs at her.

    She revealed during get-to-know-each-other bingo: she’d never broken a bone. Alice, she writes, and now you have four-in-a-row. A fragile name, like an icicle at the top of your window: beautiful, translucent, unpreservable: once fallen, will shatter.

    She had a twenty-pound backpack (deep blue), it would topple her chair when hung incorrectly. It was big on her small frame, and seemed to pull back as she bounded upstairs recklessly (after every class, it seems she has another one). You worried, but you never said anything.

  • Load More