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Dear you,
I thought I loved you, and everytime I saw a love scene on tv I began to cry because I realized you made me feel empty. I thought you were perfect and everyone told me you were so I thought to myself that you could do no wrong and I could never get anyone better. You’re still a good person but you treated me like some puppy dog that wouldn’t get the hint to shoo away. I felt so empty with you and I wanted it to work so bad, I tried so hard. I mentally broke up with you days before you finally did the deed. But I stayed because I was just hoping that things could get better. I liked you for so long that now I don’t know what to do. You were the first kiss I always wanted, the first boyfriend I needed but when I was going through so much pain you left me for dead. Now I have to sit at school and watch other girls flirt with you. The thing is, I am happy without you, but I’m confused on what to do next and I feel like these past weeks Ive been mentally drunk with false happiness and now I’m starting to sober up. I know you didnt mean it when you said you wanted To be friends and part of me is glad but the other side of me wishes that you really did mean it when you said you would always be there for me. I just wish I felt like you did care like everyone said you did. I feel like once you left all of my emotions left too and now I have no emotions and I can’t cry. But I can feel my anger sometimes but then it slips away because I am numb.

I don’t know if I miss you, but I just honestly don’t know where to go from here. I’m lost. I feel like I’m reliving the same day everyday now and I’m bored.

I can’t wait to meet someone new.

So I can put you to rest.

Love,

Me

Dear you,
It’s either I’m not trying hard enough, or it’s not meant to be..
I’m beginning to side with the latter.. Oh you.. I want you, I crave you, I need you, I am completely and utterly infatuated with you. I desire you my darling and I don’t know what to do! This isn’t love, I’m not sure if this is lust, more like obsession. But my dearest can you please make it clear on whether or not I should just give up or keep treading on??
Yes, I am a trooper but every solider gets weak after fighting to much and I no longer have enough fire in my heart and soul to keep going. My darling, My sweetheart, my dearest, I want you more than anything on this entire planet. But If it’s not meant to be.. then why should I keep on going? But every time I feel like giving up, I feel this stabbing pain in my chest.
This is something that a very little amount of people know. The day I got my first kiss I was waiting for my mom to pick me up and I saw you walking by, I don’t know if you were looking at me but you were staring in my direction. I completely forgot about my first kiss, about my boyfriend at the time, about the place I was in. All I thought about in that ten seconds that I saw you was how much I wish I could be with you, hugging you, holding your hand.
Oh you.. Make this easier… Give me a sign..

Love,
Me

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