Entries By Bethany
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The show is about to begin. A million people wait for me on the other side of the curtain. Someone in the audience coughs. I work my feet through my pointe shoes over, and over again. My brain goes fuzzy as all of my thoughts drain into my throat- a lump of nerves. My hands are shaking. I know I’m going to bomb out. Suddenly, the music begins, and the steps become clear in my head. The curtain opens. This is it. I close my mind to the world around me. The sea of faces fade away. I’m dancing.Posted By bethany On 03.27.2011 @ 6:01 pm
They look at me. They hate me. What can I do to get them to like me? No, it’s not me. It’s them. I reassure myself. They all need help, because they are the problem not me. The audience. Yes, they are the problem. Can you hear them? Are they talking about me? I need out.Posted By Bethany On 03.27.2011 @ 2:51 pm
Everywhere, we are surrounded by people- each person a different colored thread woven into the tapestry of our lives. A million individuals laced into one huge network of stories that we are often completely unaware of. They and mesh into our existence like so many strings on a loom, sometimes only crossing their color with ours once, but still adding- completing- the big picture that is our life. Our story.Posted By bethany On 03.24.2011 @ 9:05 pm
However is when you say “yes, that’s great, I agree, BUT…” However is not being satisfied with the statement at hand. However is not leaving anything unfinished, incomplete, unfulfilled. However is drawing out a lingering thought. However is contradicting your aforesaid statement.
However.Posted By bethany On 03.23.2011 @ 8:48 pm
Every moment brings me closer to The End. It approaches me, its nostrils flaring, eyebrows raised. Each second it challenges me: What am I doing with my life? Who do I think I am?
If I died right this second, what difference would I have made?
Every moment brings me closer to The End. I approach it, my nostrils flaring and eyebrow raised. Defiantly, I hold my ground, though inside I shake with insecurity.
What difference have I made?Posted By bethany On 03.22.2011 @ 7:10 pm
My instinctual reaction when I hear the word “policy” is to go against it. Policy is confinement, right? Well, no, it’s not really. Policy is just a word that describes how a person or group of people deal with certain things. Me? I try to have a policy of freedom.Posted By bethany On 03.22.2011 @ 7:16 am
my heart was once a gaping black hole centered in my chest I tried to fill it with empty promises and broken secrets now, green light has filled my soul it whispers “one day at a time” and slowly I take one step and then another it reminds me that life is worth living I’m finally a person I’m not ashamed to be if you look for it maybe you can see the hope in my eyes It’s not perfect but for once I feel wholePosted By bethany On 03.20.2011 @ 7:45 pm
Will I ever stop obsessing about my figure? Will my body ever be good enough for anyone? Will it ever be good enough for me? I don’t think the issue is really about my body. I think I just need something to obsess over. I’ve only ever just wanted to be enough. Skinny enough. Pretty enough. Good enough. Good enough for who?Posted By bethany On 03.16.2011 @ 6:38 pm
I click my heels together like a leprechaun on crack I’m so freaking happy I can’t remember the last time I felt this kind of joy golden skies fly above me wind sears through my soul I dance out this feeling I know it won’t last fuck it I’ll enjoy it while I canPosted By bethany On 03.16.2011 @ 6:51 am
Wander. I wander this world, a lost soul. You hear that phrase a lot. I don’t even know what it means. But still, I am one. Or I think I am one. I don’t know where to go, or what to do. Who to follow? Should I follow? I don’t try to figure it out. Instead, I just wander.Posted By bethany On 03.15.2011 @ 8:06 am
Mango is the fruit that you let the juice just drip down your soft skin. The first bite is always the best, but then again, they are all the best. The fruit fills your body with joy, and giddiness run through your viens. Oh, this is indeed, a very powerful fruit.Posted By Bethany On 02.22.2011 @ 4:45 pm