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It was midday. Four minutes after three. Antonio said he’d be here at three. Maybe I’m being obsessive, but maybe I’m not. I really just believe someone as wonderful as him is unreal or at least unreal to be with a wreck like moi. Moi à le café.

Posted By Kayla On 04.22.2013 @ 5:13 pm

“But on a wednesday, in a cafe, I watched it begin again.” Those lyrics by my idol are amazing. Her lyrics haunt me everyday, they make me vulnerable and strong at the same time. I love music, I love how I can simply escape from the pain of the world as I discover a beautiful place of love, hope and serenity.

Posted By Kayla On 04.22.2013 @ 3:28 pm

Magenta was a character on Blue’s Clues. I used to sit by the T.V admiring the characters and laughing, my messy hair and little feet. Everything was so simple. The biggest arguments was over who was taller in kindergarten. Everything was peaceful and cute and wonderful.

Posted By Kayla On 04.21.2013 @ 2:38 pm

I want to make a burrow and then lay there not interacting with anyone. I want to die, and I want them to forget every horrible thing I have ever done. I want to stare into an empty space without a sick thought coming to my mind of how filthy my existence is.

Posted By Kayla On 04.20.2013 @ 5:58 pm

Metro was the word for yesterday. “IT’S THE SAME WORD AS YESTERDAY!” I scream and I bury my face into my hands. This cannot be happening. I hit my computer and beg it to change the world. “Please… I- I need it.” My hands are trembling as I pray for it to be a different word. This is the end of the universe.

Posted By Kayla On 04.19.2013 @ 12:53 pm

The metro system is good in so many ways. For waiting for it, and for thinking. Thinking and sitting there waiting for something, some thought to help you. Something that you can hold on too. Some person who can help. And as the train comes, I step on, wishing for relief instead of hell.

Posted By Kayla On 04.18.2013 @ 2:29 pm

I am a dreadful creature. My awful body and lifeless eyes, its a wonder how I can go through everyday acting the same. I wish I wasn’t the second option though. I wish you cared about me thae way I do to you. I cherish every word you say, and you barely notice mine. Maybe this is the reason for my misery. Maybe I am deserving of this torture.

Posted By Kayla On 04.17.2013 @ 3:35 pm

I tried to stop mumbling, because I needed to speak clearly. The problem was that I couldn’t. I couldn’t explain how much I love you. Everything you’ve ever done for me, the things you’ve done to help me, I just want to tell you all of my deepest darkest secrets and explore your inner beauty because I find you dazzling.

Posted By Kayla On 04.16.2013 @ 3:14 pm

The leverage of this pain is increasing by the second. As terrible things happen, I begin to wonder if this is all an insane state of pure agony. I try to scream and cry, but I am unable to. I try to explain, but my words are cut short by those of people who despise me. As I shake and struggle to stay calm, I realize that I have lost control. It is over.

Posted By Kayla On 04.15.2013 @ 3:58 pm

The geometric learning was up on the board, but I was unable to concrete for I kept pondering… I’m sorry. That thought had come to me, and it wouldn’t stop. Had this been my fault that we’re done? Is it all me and my worthless reckless comments and words? Or was it you? You’re beautiful, and I simply cannot believe I let something as stunning as this slip my grasp.

Posted By Kayla On 04.14.2013 @ 3:42 pm

The geometric learning was up on the board, but I was unable to concrete for I kept pondering… I’m sorry. That thought had come to me, and it wouldn’t stop. Had this been my fault that we’re done? Is it all me and my worthless reckless comments and words? Or was it you. You’re beautiful, and I simple cannot believe I let something as stunning as this slip my grasp.

Posted By Kayla On 04.14.2013 @ 2:50 pm

attracted.. Im attracted to you. you and your quirks. things that people hate and I can’t help but accept. I am attracted, attracted to you. And guess what? You’re mine (: Im outz

Posted By Kayla On 04.13.2013 @ 6:32 pm

I feel attracted to you because of how you are. How you intrigue me deeply. I just want to explore your inner depths and love you as much as I can. I do love you, and no matter what I always will. I know you care about me, and I feel more than happy. I feel on top of the world, and the pride you give me is superior to the pain the others give to me. I adore you.

Posted By Kayla On 04.13.2013 @ 6:14 pm

branch? like a tree branch? a branch of trees? i love trees. they smell nice. and they look nice too. Who doesn’t like a nice shade of brown and green. sometimes yellow and red too. colors are what makes the world pretty.

Posted By Kayla On 04.13.2013 @ 4:37 am

Your words intervene mine, like branches, flawlessly surrounding each other with pretty leaves and blossoms and glorious things. I need you. That thought had ran through my mind all the time. If only she wasn’t there. If only you adored every inch of my flesh as I adore yours. If only you loved me the way I love you. If only you felt envious and powerless like I do to you. If only.

Posted By Kayla On 04.12.2013 @ 1:37 pm

The anchor drags me down and pulls me under. I struggle at the surfaces, choking, trying to maintain my breathing. This dead weight is pulling me, and there is nothing I can do about it. You pull it off of me as my breathing slowly returns to normal.

Posted By Kayla On 04.11.2013 @ 2:15 pm

I want to be free. I want to live my life doing what I love to do. I don’t mean a career, a certain profession… I mean I just want to life my life in love with it. I want to know where I’m going, or know just enough so that I’m not afraid to go into it blindly. I want to love love love and be free.

Posted By Kayla On 04.10.2013 @ 4:48 pm

My welfare depends on you. You are the supporting ground for it, and I desperately need that emotion to stay. I love you. I adore you, and you are the happiness that I feel. Without you that emotion is gone, and I will be lost at sea. I need you, and I will stand my ground knowing that.

Posted By Kayla On 04.10.2013 @ 2:43 pm

My tumblr dashboard refreshes as I wait for her reply. I keep refreshing, only to find my inbox empty. I silently scream “PLEASE REPLY!” As I throw my hands up in the air, clearly frustrated. I need this reply. I need it so much.

Posted By Kayla On 04.09.2013 @ 8:17 pm

My tumblr dashboard refreshed as I wait for her reply. I keep refreshing, only to find my inbox empty. I silently scream “PLEASE REPLY!” As I throw my hands up in the air, clearly frustrated. I need this reply. I need it so much.

Posted By Kayla On 04.09.2013 @ 7:46 pm

dashboard, is this tumblr? Cause I wish this was, maybe I should go back there. Would be nice, but I am tired of the anon hate..

Posted By Kayla On 04.09.2013 @ 5:09 pm

I feel punished the pain is horrible. I need it I deserve it. I deserve this pain and torture, the punishment is mine and I need to accept that it will last my lifetime. I need this hell. I deserve to be punished. I do. l need the punishment, because it is now me.

Posted By kayla On 04.07.2013 @ 8:07 pm

OMG the flour hit the ground, now my cookies are ruined. She will never get to experience the love in my cookies with out the magical flour. What have I done. She is never going to stick around..

Posted By Kayla On 04.07.2013 @ 10:10 am

I remember when I didn’t know there was a “wheat” option.

Posted By Kayla On 03.30.2013 @ 7:33 am

rain boots, a bad show, to boot rain. rain. rain. never bought them. wish i had. time is running out what is the point? hmm.. tick tock…waiting waiting

Posted By Kayla On 03.23.2013 @ 2:27 pm

This is how every inside of her being felt when she watched him walk away. She was withered. She was slowly dying. She was falling. And there was no saving her this time.

Posted By Kayla On 03.11.2013 @ 8:57 am

go back to where you started. go back to that same spot. turn around and go back to where you started. go back to the spot you were just at

Posted By kayla On 03.08.2013 @ 9:54 am

people are always sending mixed signals i get really tired of it like why cant you just be straight forword with it your signals are msssing with my head like do you love me or not i mostly only have this problem with guys why cant you just like me an dno one else just talk to me and no one else love me and have the feelings i have for you dont sit there and flirt one day and the next ignore me

Posted By kayla On 03.07.2013 @ 2:06 am

Engulf me completely and I’m staring at you, pleading with you, mouth sealed shut to help me to rescue me to not stand there and watch me burn. I’ve been burning for months, a quiet and complete combustion until all that will remain is a pile of ashes. Can you see me? Do you want to save me? I can’t even tell. I don’t trust myself to make those judgment calls anymore. I was wrong once and it almost cost me everything. I want so desperately to confess it all to you. Sometimes when I’m with you, I feel like it might all come tumbling out of my mouth. But I clamp it shut, say something witty that sounds like sarcasm even though it’s truth and fuel the flames with each word unspoken and each thought unshared.

Posted By Kayla On 03.05.2013 @ 5:19 pm

Flames ignite in your soul. You feel them after your heart has broken to pieces. You feel them when you’re ready for all to end. You feel them when you’re suffering. In the middle of the night, when you wake up in tears. You feel the flames in your heart.

Posted By Kayla On 03.05.2013 @ 4:21 pm