Entries By Ruben
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catapult
And with debt and with fears and anxiety I was thrown into my 24th Summer. It was the year of the snake. And I was struggling against the sands of time. To
Posted By Ruben On 05.20.2013 @ 5:38 pm
must
I must stop spending money I don’t have. It’s a crime and I’ve been punished for it before. What can I do then to fill the void which only finds sedation when purchasing clothes I don’t need.
Posted By Ruben On 01.07.2013 @ 7:28 pm
himself
He couldn’t be himself. He couldn’t be another. He had trouble being. But no trouble moving. Forward. Backwards. Inwards, Mostly.
Posted By Ruben On 11.30.2012 @ 6:28 pm
rise
It was too long before I knew what happiness was. I still have trouble recognizing whether I’m truly happy or just relieved to be rid of loneliness. I loved my family, but it took them too long to realized they loved me too.
Posted By Ruben On 11.29.2012 @ 10:32 pm
soon
It wasn’t until the last drop spilled that I realized the effects of the potion were instant. No waiting. No sooner. No later. Just now. And boy, let me say this, nothing could have prepared me for what was next…
Posted By Ruben On 11.25.2012 @ 8:23 pm
charge
There was a charge to living free. At first I thought it was merely my sanity. A price I didn’t mind as I’d assumed I lost it years ago. Then I found that the true cost of living free is beauty. I hadn’t much left after years of suffering, still, life took what was left and let me free. A battered wretched soul.
Posted By Ruben On 10.20.2012 @ 8:42 pm
fresh
new ideas coming in like edifices over ancient forests. Crumbling foliage, grazing of dirt, for new hopes and metropolis dreams.
Posted By Ruben On 10.10.2012 @ 5:51 pm
possible
If it were possible to get him into my bed tonight I would die a happy man. My friends would raise a toast to me and my accomplishments. They’d masturbate to the sex tape.
Posted By Ruben On 10.06.2012 @ 11:22 am
scene
It was a riot. Unadulterated an full of vigor. I could have stopped it.But why should I? This was entertaining. And goodness knows I needed a little fun in my life. So I let these women batter it out like alley cats. I figured I’d take the sweatiest one home.
Posted By Ruben On 10.05.2012 @ 1:10 pm
walls
There wasn’t any time to dismantle the wall brick by brick. We had to abolish it all at once. For my mother had little time left and we needed to find a way to settle our affairs. Oh death that come so soon after wounds have finally healed.
Posted By Ruben On 10.04.2012 @ 12:42 pm
hundred
It had been years since we had anything to do with one another. Yet here we were. Somehow fate decided it wasn’t done with us. That it wanted to play one last game. We had no choice but to go along and abide by life’s rules.
Posted By Ruben On 09.28.2012 @ 1:14 pm
help
It wasn’t like I needed them. It was time to fly the coop and this time I’d have nothing holding me back. Not a crying mother or a worried lover. It was up to me now to save this planet, me and only me.
Posted By Ruben On 09.27.2012 @ 10:24 am
It was no good. She was far too deep in it. What could I do but kill a couple goons. It couldn’t save her life. I didn’t know what could. She always acted so strong willed. But after calculating the odds, I seriously think today is when her luck runs out.
Posted By Ruben On 09.26.2012 @ 9:55 pm
I need help getting by. A little help. To move my life. A new beginning. Four blocks away. Do you have a truck? I only own a little bed. still too big for open arms.
Posted By Ruben On 09.26.2012 @ 4:12 pm
affairs
I had no time to think. Her hands were down my pants and all logic was gone. I swore I’d never do this. I couldn’t do this. But she jerked and tugged. I was afraid to hurt her so I just held her arm firmly and pulled it away. Still, my hand had made a red imprint on her skin…
Posted By Ruben On 09.25.2012 @ 11:31 pm
I had to settle everything before I made my way to the promised land. I had decided to leave everything behind, what was left anyway, in order to follow the Prophet into the light. Money is so hard to leave behind when you’ve made a life out of making sure it piles up.
Posted By Ruben On 09.25.2012 @ 6:34 pm
people
It wasn’t until they left their entire person away that I realized how ineffectual they were to our whole operation. What did they have to offer me, I mean us, that we couldn’t do without?
Posted By Ruben On 09.23.2012 @ 2:56 am
trial
It was a new day and yet nothing felt fresh. It was as if time went by without a new horizon to keep things interesting. “What was the point?” I thought to myself.
Posted By Ruben On 09.22.2012 @ 9:56 am
This hearing didn’t go as planned. Then again I had not prepared and I was so sure that things would go my way. I mean why wouldn’t they? I’d talked myself out of worse situations before…
Posted By Ruben On 09.21.2012 @ 11:28 pm
I never knew I could actually end up going to jail for this. It was a simple misdemeanor. Oh what a grand job I’d made of forgetting my past. It’s finally come to strike me in the face. Right as things were turning out.
Posted By Ruben On 09.21.2012 @ 2:24 pm
begin
I had to start somewhere. What a better time than now. And what a better place than here? He asked for it. After all, was it no he who belittled my skill at the public square? I had to show him who the master was. And I had to start by annihilating his entire force, soldier by soldier.
Posted By Ruben On 09.20.2012 @ 10:41 pm
I had to start looking out for myself. I couldn’t let me fall for this type of thing again. But I really couldn’t trust myself to make decisions when it came to love. So I decided I’d wait until I knew for certain I was making the right choice. I figured I’d be wise enough to make sane choices at the age of 35. So I locked my heart away until then.
Posted By Ruben On 09.20.2012 @ 11:56 am
claim
I couldn’t believe what she was saying. It was as if I was being punished for being too responsible at my age. I couldn’t be the only 23 year old trying to make it out there on their own. She had to let me have this job. She had to hire me.
Posted By Ruben On 09.19.2012 @ 4:00 pm
despite
I had no choice but to let her win. She knew I could over power her despite her well played combo. Yet I was weak against the Champions and she had been trained her entire life to take them on.
Posted By Ruben On 09.18.2012 @ 8:16 pm
together
Our life together had reached an end. We somehow convinced ourselves that a friendship lied ahead for us after sharing a bed for 2 years. I smiled and let out a grunt under my breath. I somehow found it unlikely that we would ever see each other after our move in dates.
Posted By Ruben On 09.17.2012 @ 10:48 pm
alive
It was 2am and I couldn’t believe I was still alive. I was dizzy with adrenaline and couldn’t really see straight but I was conscious. Now my every thought was worried about them finding me here. The cold had frozen my feet at this point…
Posted By Ruben On 09.17.2012 @ 11:09 am
It wasn’t until she left that I remembered what it was like to feel alive. To be 21. to be 16. To be free. I wanted to run and cry and feel and live. I wanted to rob a liquor store and drunk on champagne. But I’m 81. The best I could muster was a childish giggle and a sad grin.
Posted By Ruben On 09.17.2012 @ 12:59 am
blindness
I was so blind to my mistakes, I just kept going with what I thought I knew. But compared to them I knew nothing. I only knew that my brush was my guide onto unexplored canvas. I couldn’t express what I was doing. I hoped the piece would speak for itself. But they wanted a dissection of my process. Something I couldn’t really give them.
Posted By Ruben On 09.16.2012 @ 11:11 am
fried
And all I’ve seen, and all I’ve heard, and all I’ve felt, I had to feel it all once more. Before the machines began to ignite me. Before my blood pumped no more. Before it was oil. Before I was metal. Before I had gone and no one noticed anything but the smile that made them laugh. Not the ghost that struggled for 23 years.
Posted By Ruben On 09.14.2012 @ 11:43 pm
