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I’m just not a part of your branch anymore, I’m a leaf just barely grasping on, soon you’ll shake me off and I’ll fall, and never be with you all together anymore
It’s sad that I have to tiptoe around you all, when in reality my feelings so strong have truth behind them all. I’m lonely and lost and fluttering away
i just want to disappear againPosted By Spark On 04.13.2013 @ 2:13 am
I need a hold on my reality and my mind But it isn’t through the abyss that I must work but through purity and clean thoughts My positive smile brought you to my side and I will not let my dark frown push you away For you For us For me I will become stronger and overcome I will have faith in us, even when the red string eternal seems pulled so thin So please, don’t let me feel the tough love because right now I just need your arms and I’ll be whole againPosted By Spark On 12.29.2012 @ 5:25 pm
Throw it under, pile some earth on top, bury it so that it may never rise again. I hate what has grown from the tears that have watered it. When did this disdain and hatred grow where love should be? When something is watered with so many bitter tears, with no one to give it love, what would you expect to grow? \
I just need your love now.Posted By Spark On 12.29.2012 @ 2:40 am
Who knows what will happen when the next day comes Who knows if we’ll make it out of this together Who knows if we have to part ways to come back into each other’s lives Who knows where I’ll fall when you let go of my hand All I know is that I love you and I will take the fall so I can climb back up But it will be darkness before there is lightPosted By Spark On 12.23.2012 @ 11:03 am
we’re moving in sync, but we’re not actually thinking our lips our moving, but our minds are miles away you’re this close to me, but so far away when will you be available again? so we can meet again, heart to heart because it’s lonely and cold where I am lost, the shadows wrapping me away vikings don’t wear horned helms and it goes on and on without an endPosted By Spark On 12.11.2012 @ 2:46 pm
Choices that we face, handed over by an old crone, what shall we do? The consequences of our actions hold such a power we will never know. And in some way, why am I always the one who has to suffer them. No decision I’ve come to, even after much debate, will be smiled on. For once, I wish that when a choice was presented, I could just ignore it and float away. Because no matter which way is right or wrong, it will never play out well for me.Posted By Spark On 12.10.2012 @ 2:29 pm
Remember those times we lay around just enjoying the company of one another, eating snacks and watching a show we couldn’t comprehend? Those days are not gone, just passing away for a bit, right? I am here I will be here as long as you need me. Even as you push me higher, I will drag you along with me because I will not allow you to fall into your own deep dark despair without a hand to help you up to higher groundPosted By Spark On 12.04.2012 @ 4:22 pm
What is it? Is it a splash of light blue with white clouds painted across a dark canvas? Is it sparkles of gold and silver thrown onto a burnt road? Is this suppose to last forever, or just point us in the right direction?
I don’t need a miracle. I just need youPosted By Spark On 09.04.2012 @ 1:32 am
You’re searching through thick glen, wandering aimlessly through endless plain, battling with merciless emotions, sleeping under a starry sky, waiting for the rain to stop falling on a sunny day, running from the darkness of your mind, just to find that someone that will help open the happiness that is locked in your heartPosted By Spark On 08.04.2012 @ 11:00 pm
Memories, snapshots of the was and has been. A smile in the eyes, a laughter caught in bubbles floating to the sky. Awkward, shifty eyes, never captured the true emotions and love for the time. Forever only lasts as long as the photograph, and the camera only holds a sweet and sorrow history. I want to return, and look through those lenses again. At a time where forever was too short for us, and a lifetime was entwining usPosted By Spark On 08.02.2012 @ 5:14 pm
I convicted myself of the crime, and now I’m paying the price. I was a fool, letting anger and frustration get the better of me. This time, I might not have a happy ending. I know that I shouldn’t be so optimistic, but that doesn’t mean I’ve stopped believing. Or praying that I’ll be given another chance to change everything again.Posted By Spark On 06.01.2012 @ 1:32 pm
Waiting back into our memories, digging through the music pulsing through my head, endless nothings flowing out of my brain… Go back, go back into that unforgettable time. I can’t tear it apart, but can only embrace the boldness so that every time I hold someone’s hand, it’s be just as special as that first timePosted By Spark On 05.25.2012 @ 12:00 am
I want to pile all my emotions on you, let them flood all over. I want to pile my grief and insecurities and lie them there for you to see. It’s lonely being the only one who is part of this conversation, being the only one who wants to be a part of it. little things, one by one, stack together, until it becomes a tower of terror that we cannot face alone.
what would it be like to eskimo kiss again, like the first time when blushes and shyness lightly wrapped how enamored we were. to simpler times when you actually liked talking to me.Posted By Spark On 05.20.2012 @ 1:24 am
In the middle of my chest, a bubble has begun to form, expanding larger and larger with each passing memory. The void, it consumes, re-processing thoughts, finally learning to let them go. In the empty space that’s leaving my frame unstable, I’ll plant more daffodils and find more turtles with mustaches. Then perhaps it wont be so empty anymorePosted By Spark On 04.30.2012 @ 11:39 pm
With the slightest push, he tips me over the edge. My fury, my frustration, boils over. What patience I have wears thin, and his hurtful words and cruel disposition make me want to scream. But then, the slightest touch, slightest touch of care, pulls me back again. Because in the end, we’re just cats fighting for dominance, but will snuggle together at night to withstand the furies of the world and the weight of responsibilityPosted By Spark On 04.20.2012 @ 1:48 am
i feel weaker by the minute, i feel blander by the second. i’m terrible at waiting, but i’m also scared of people. i want to cry out, i want to be heard, but what good would it do me? i’m yelling but it’s no louder than a whisper. i’m a stranger in my head. but everything is bland and i just want you to stay, to paint my world in more than just black and white, in the misty gray my injured eye can’t seePosted By Spark On 01.10.2012 @ 5:59 pm
currently there is too much hate in this heart of mine, too much on the mind to be sane. i took it out on the closest one to me, and now i’m so afraid. because it wasn’t meant for him, it was only meant for me. but this savage wild ugly monster in me wouldn’t think the same. i’m finding excuses but only seeing the truth more and more. i hope i get my billionth second chance because i really need it nowPosted By Spark On 01.10.2012 @ 10:07 am
i’m a daffodil, the golden yellow flower welcoming in the misty month of March. My beauty is only for one week, and afterwards I fade. The rest of the year, I am waiting, waiting to shoot my green stem up towards the sky and to peep out my beautiful self. A rose or a lily may forever be sweeter, and as a small daffodil I shy away for only being a one week beauty.
I’m sorry I cannot be more beautiful and make you more proud to stand by my side. Maybe I even bring shame when you’re seen with me. But I’ll always be just a daffodil, dressed up in sunny yellow, hoping to bring some cheer into your foggy dreamsPosted By Spark On 01.08.2012 @ 4:50 pm
It’s like I’ve gone back to the past, when I worried about what he thinks, and I worry that if I talk too much, he’ll dislike me and run away from me. I fret about the little things and I worry so much about the question “Does he like me?” He already says he does, but why is there such a glimmer of doubt?
Probably because I need someone right now who will give me their all so that I feel important. because every time I go home I feel even more pathetic and insignificant. Doesn’t everyone need support sometime? This isn’t how i imagined starting the new year: hopelessly lost and unfortunately sad. Except when we could be together and he held me close.
That then was also my glimmer of peace. I need more of that now. Please. I beg you. Save me.Posted By Spark On 01.01.2012 @ 8:18 pm
being with you, i want to make you smile, i want to be your everything, but every day it feels like i am slowly slipping back to something and closer to nothing. I know that hearts change, i know that love wanes, but I want to know what to do to make you smile. I want to know how to win all your heart. I don’t want to use threats and tears. I want to be someone who matters enough that you can feel safe with. because recently it just feels like all I can do is hold you and hope and pray that somewhere, you still trust me. Your actions look tired, you are very reluctant. And I know that everyone is privy to their own thoughts, but we talk about a future, but I don’t want to be the one always wondering. I’m smarter than that. I have stronger emotional ties to you than that. Doesn’t it feel nice to know someone cares about you, regardless of all? What about me? Am I allowed to feel the same too?
You might turn it and say something like, “Then we shouldn’t be together if it doesn’t seem like I can give you the love you want.” But that’s not the point. I know you love me. I know you are stressed with life and have so much on your mind. You should know that I’m here for you always. But please, I don’t like this barrier you’ve built around yourself, to protect yourself from the world or to make yourself feel mysterious.
I should stop making excuses, allowing you to take residence in my heart’s estate without your knowledge or consent. But, please, tell me, what am I suppose to do? Patience is a virtue, and I’m learning it through and through.Posted By Spark On 12.31.2011 @ 11:27 am
Walking endlessly, feeling the dry air swirling, saturated with lifelessness. Falling, it’s hard to walk, could we just be swimming? But at night, when all cools, and you’re lying on the ground dying, look up at the dark blue sky and see the millions of stars dancing for you.
Water is precious, so save it, but you can’t help letting one tear drop when you realize that, even in all this emptiness, there is still so much beauty.Posted By Spark On 12.28.2011 @ 11:12 pm
the sweetest of things, at the end of a hearty meal, usually sweet and delectable. Can be simple and elegant or decadent and expensive. Regardless a dessert is the happiness at the end of a meal… much like how he is always that happiness for me. I anticipate his arrival, am delighted when I see him and no matter what, even if the meal was crap or the day was a bust, at least I have him to look forward to.
I just miss him a lot right now.Posted By Spark On 12.27.2011 @ 10:54 pm
when you walk into the room, everything else fades. my eyes can only watch you, my focus is on you. The spotlight shines on you, even when I try to look away. I wonder if the same happens to you, as I walk past, do the lights dim in the room and do you only have me in your eyes? what is this painful feeling of goodbye?Posted By Spark On 11.28.2011 @ 11:50 pm
keen on faces, keen on laughter, keen on everything good there is to see. study, study, little expressions. I don’t want to be a part of these experiments any more. I don’t want to see this study published. I just want to know the answers, know the fate and continue forward. but instead here we are, studying and studyingPosted By Spark On 11.23.2011 @ 12:36 am
Laughter, something breaking the still of the night. The night that was filled with tense scoffing and irritable grumbles. One where it was easy to understand a begging puppy’s cry for attention. As we walked through the cold of the night, my laughter finally brought that handsome smile to your face, and I was enchanted again. Again I’ve fallen into my trapPosted By Spark On 11.22.2011 @ 1:14 am
The flow of colors, nicely blended together, dropping lightly into water and dispersing to transparent. Did I add a touch of special to your lives? Am I just turning into dull gray? In a way, if this was meant to be, then good by to the period of you and me. Baroque, Classical Romantic, Contemporary… Onto the next period!Posted By Spark On 10.26.2011 @ 10:32 pm
Radical the epiphanies seem in the present times, radicals, free floating through the sky, lightly taking bites out of our skin and our health. Radical is the thought of living in a world of honesty and trust… or is that just because we have a lot more to learn before we can settlePosted By Spark On 10.22.2011 @ 3:00 am