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You wandered into the world, wide-eyed and in awe of everything.

Posted By sweeterthansunshine On 03.15.2011 @ 8:46 am

We’ve had this word before.

Posted By sweeterthansunshine On 03.13.2011 @ 2:17 pm

It was a harsh statement. And I just stared at you, not quite understanding. I don’t love you anymore.

Posted By sweeterthansunshine On 03.11.2011 @ 10:35 am

I often wondered where you were those days. What you were doing. If you were alone or sharing your soul with someone. I hope that you are sharing it, because I remember what that was like. Holding a tiny piece close to my heart because it shined so brightly. It felt like a hug from a friend you hadn’t seen in awhile. It felt like home.

Posted By sweeterthansunshine On 03.10.2011 @ 10:17 am

I was swept away by life. And you were still, immobile. Watching. And soon I had floated away from your sight.

Posted By sweeterthansunshine On 03.07.2011 @ 9:55 am

Give me an example. Please show me how someone loves again.

Posted By sweeterthansunshine On 03.05.2011 @ 4:30 pm

I made an example of you. I reduced you to moments and facts.

Posted By sweeterthansunshine On 03.05.2011 @ 4:25 pm

This was the final chance. The last opportunity to speak the words. I love you. I always have. I always will. But he just stared at her. And she kissed him softly on the corner of his lips.

Posted By sweeterthansunshine On 03.03.2011 @ 2:17 pm

You never wanted the specific details. Never cared that stardust filled my lungs or that my hair had broken meteors tangled in.

Posted By sweeterthansunshine On 03.02.2011 @ 9:13 pm

She watched as he pushed the stroller smoothly, just a hint of hesitation in the way his body moved. She smiled slightly, deja vu washing over her as her mind remembered a similar scene from centuries and centuries ago. The baby inside cooed softy and perfectly. The young man’s eyes widened in recognition that he was doing something right. Yes, she remembered a similar scene from centuries and centuries ago. And the whisper of familiarity told her that he was going to be just fine.

Posted By sweeterthansunshine On 09.07.2010 @ 2:38 pm

You are calling from a telephone booth in a city unknown to those back home. You are pushing a loose strand of unwashed hair behind your ear and reminding yourself that this is how you want it. You are biting your lip to keep the tears from falling as your mother pleads for you to come back. You tell her that that house is not your home and that things are never simple in the end. You are saying goodbye and your lip is now bleeding red red red.

Posted By sweeterthansunshine On 09.06.2010 @ 8:47 pm

Calling cross-country to tell you how I feel but the cords are tangled and the miles and miles in between cause my words to crackle from the static.

Posted By sweeterthansunshine On 09.06.2010 @ 8:36 pm

Bear with me now, althought I know that it is difficult to understand. I miss you, not just what we used to be together, but simply you. You changed me significantly and I cannot ever forget that. We parted from each other’s lives to early for my taste. It might have been soon enough for you but if I could just have a few more days, my soul would be at ease. Breaking up meant not just ending our relationship but ending the best friendship that I have ever had as well. You are the most amazing person that I know, even with all of your flaws and frustrations. Not being able to talk or even to see you leaves me with a gaping hole that it feels like everyone can see through. My family and friends all walk on egg shells around me. It has been three months since we went our seperate ways and I have only seen you once. The awkward hello and the conversation that followed made it seem like having my wisdom teeth removed was nothing. I just want to be able to talk to you, even to just chat about the weather.

Posted By sweeterthansunshine On 07.08.2010 @ 10:14 pm

Chaos on the freeway. Bumper to bumper traffic with frustrated drivers who don’t use proper turn signals and believe that they are all King of the Road.

Posted By sweeterthansunshine On 07.06.2010 @ 2:18 pm

I watched the tide turn, the water slowly changing and gaining power. My feet were now in the position to be soaked by the sea. I didn’t want to move though. I didn’t want to leave the soft sand and the salty breeze. I was waiting for you to come back.

Posted By sweeterthansunshine On 06.22.2010 @ 1:50 pm

You waltzed in and out of my life so gracefully and fluidly that I almost thought that I had dreamed it. It had happened though. Especially the part where you left. The loneliness that surrounds me when I sit in my house, so silent and so still, is astounding. It is enough to bring me to my knees most days but I know, in the back of my head, that life will pick up and move on again. I have to get over you, however long that may take. Maybe I won’t really ever get over you, just enough to convince my soul that you are gone for good and I am good with you gone.

Posted By sweeterthansunshine On 06.20.2010 @ 7:55 pm

I was without you for so long. It doesn’t feel like I thought that it would to be back with you again. My mind had seen it through rose colored glasses, pretty in pink with a bow on top. Reality was far different than that. I don’t feel like I did before, I don’t feel anything. I was without you for so long that I don’t need you anymore.

Posted By sweeterthansunshine On 06.18.2010 @ 5:58 pm

We had a falling out. After all, everyone has them. It took me awhile to miss you. It seemed like everything just picked up and continued on after you were gone from my life. Friday nights were filled with other friends and my parents never dared to ask why you never came around anymore. Neither of us made any move to bridge that gap that grew every day, every hour, every minute that we spent apart. I used to know you like the back of my hand. Now, you are a complete stranger. I wouldn’t recognize you if I passed you on the street. That part is the worst. Not being able to say that I know you anymore. Especially when once upon a time, you knew all of my deepest secrets and could read my mind without trying. It’s the circle of life though. We both have new best friends that maybe, one day, we will fall out of friendship with.

Posted By sweeterthansunshine On 06.15.2010 @ 3:56 pm

You waved your magic little wand and made everything okay again. You told me to trust you and to just believe in what you had to say. So I listened and I didn’t judge, I just opened myself up to you and you had to offer. I soaked up your wisdom and your everlasting love and forgot what we had both done in the past. Afterwards, we sat silence, gathering our thoughts and creating our next battle plan. You looked at me with an expression that I couldn’t place my finger on. I bit my lip and leaned towards you, believing in what you had to say and falling under the spell you had cast on me.

Posted By sweeterthansunshine On 06.10.2010 @ 11:17 am

You made a smart remark about the boys of your summer and how you didn’t need him anymore. You made it seem like you hadn’t missed him at all during your months of sand and sunshine and salty waters. You went on and on, telling your circle of bleached blonde followers how the lifeguard you met was the best kisser. I could tell though that underneath your victories that you re-enacted, that when the sun went down and everyone crawled into their beds, that you cried yourself to sleep at night. I knew that you wished he was there to mold your body against when you slept.

Posted By sweeterthansunshine On 06.07.2010 @ 12:00 pm

Hand in hand, we roamed our way around Rome, completely lost but completely content. Your suit was wrinkled from our travels but with the tie loosened and then first couple of buttons undone, you pulled it off. We weren’t concerned by not knowing more Italian than what our pocket-book translator gave us. It was one of those perfect days that we compiled while exploring country after country. Rome is just one that stands out the brightest in my mind, forever stitched into my heart. We were simply careless young adults, refusing to commit to true adulthood yet and wanting to do something with our lives that we would never forget.

Posted By sweeterthansunshine On 06.05.2010 @ 8:07 pm

You’re spineless. Bending and breaking at everyone’s whims. You don’t stand up for yourself. Hell, you most likely don’t even know who you are anymore.

Posted By sweeterthansunshine On 06.05.2010 @ 8:02 am

The train station is full of life, bustling with people who have places to go and things to do, coming alive with people who are coming home and embracing their loved ones. I take a seat on a slightly empty bench and let the tension that I have been carrying around fall from my shoulders. This is where I go to relax and to take a few minutes to breath. This is the place that keeps me from falling into the deepest pits of loneliness.

Posted By sweeterthansunshine On 05.31.2010 @ 10:30 pm

The train left this morning. I didn’t try and stop it, I didn’t try and catch your hand as you bought your ticket and found your seat, I didn’t even wake up in time to see you off.

Posted By sweeterthansunshine On 05.31.2010 @ 10:26 pm

You have always been such a pillar of strength that seeing you here, make-up smeared and clothes wrinkled, it is shocking at best. The rain is pouring down and hitting the ground so loudly that it is all that I can hear. You are soaked from head to toe but you don’t seem to care. The empty stare that fills your usually bright eyes pierces through me, making me wonder what happened to you. I usher you in without a word, knowing that this is not the time for questions to be asked. This is the time for me to get you a change of clothes and a steaming cup of tea. This is the time for me to give you a place to sleep and a thick blanket to keep out the chill of early spring. This is the time for me to be your pillar of strength and to hold you up when all you can do is fall down.

Posted By sweeterthansunshine On 05.26.2010 @ 9:41 pm

Pretty hearts in pretty packages of love, tied up with string that it delicate and sweet. I send them out to you, overnight express UPS, not trusting such an important message and gift with the regular mailmen.

Posted By sweeterthansunshine On 05.25.2010 @ 8:39 pm

String me along, make me fall in love with you over and over again. Discard me when you get tired and pick me up when all of the other girls have left. I don’t mind and while I should, the knowledge that I am the one you come back to makes my heart sing. Some heart, huh? It comes back to low self-esteems that you feed from like it’s your last meal. Eat it up while you can because I will let you walk all over me, love me and leave me, bruise my delicate feelings, but one day I will wake up a different person. I will be stronger and realize that I deserve more from a boy and that you are not worth another second of my life.

Posted By sweeterthansunshine On 05.25.2010 @ 8:36 pm

The streamers are all strung up by now, the party plates and matching napkins laid out on the table, everyone but you has arrived and in between laughter, hugs, and hellos, they look around and try to decide where to hide. This is the big moment that we have waited for, that all of this planning and arranging has been leading up to. They are just waiting for you, the shining star, the birthday boy.

If they only knew that floors below, we are entering the apartment complex with tension humming around us. The dinner that was meant to be special and momentous and especially for you was ruined. The steaks were charred and the wine too dry for your liking. You prefer beer as it would appear after your nose wrinkled with the first sip. When I tried to usher you back to our place, knowing the surprise that was anticipating, your temper flashed brightly with a venom that stung the entire ride home.

Posted By sweeterthansunshine On 05.25.2010 @ 8:26 pm

My heart is on a string and you are pulling it along after you, letting it drag along the ground and through the dirt. When you finally pull it up closer to you, it is battered and bruised and the edges are not as shiny and bright as they were when I first gave it to you. You look at it and realize that this heart is not as picture perfect as you thought it was. After all, you have been carrying it along for quite a while now.

Posted By sweeterthansunshine On 05.25.2010 @ 8:15 pm

She stood under the cascade of steaming water, feeling more comfortable than she had all day. Her muscles slowly unclenched from the strain of arguing and the clashing of stubborn minds. It wasn’t healthy to be angry all the time, the back of her mind screamed. Ignoring all thoughts that ran through her head. Focusing instead of the way that her skin reacted to the water delicously, every part that the water wasn’t spilling over was a mess of shivering goosebumps.

Posted By sweeterthansunshine On 05.24.2010 @ 1:44 pm