• Jason commented on the post, spilled 3 weeks, 2 days ago

    I’m in warrior mode
    having gone more than two months
    without a day off
    without reprieve.
    Most weeks I only sleep six hours a night
    and I trudge forward
    with resolve sharper than I ever knew
    prior to this two month deluge.
    This is not a poem.
    This is my awe on the page,
    an ink bottle tipped over,
    with its contents finding solace on the page.

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  • Jason posted an update 2 months, 1 week ago

    Daily dreams remind me of the absence of heart and mind
    accompanying those of no inner intent
    as they babble on in talks of turns
    and bumble down the road to and from the bar.
    Unconsciousness calls! Quick! Drink to reply!

    I pass some spirit zombies on my way into the world,
    staying up late enough to see my own ghosts,
    talk to my own shadow.
    A reminder of the former undevelopments I owned.

    I’ll leave lovers I never loved in the dust of my path
    for the betterment of a future I yet know not
    but in mind, where it’s all pretend-
    this life focuses
    sharper and sharper
    into completion.

  • Jason commented on the post, punished 2 months, 1 week ago

    At the end of the day
    with an already full shame tank
    I listen to the weathered words
    of a divine inner hatred
    for the freedom you never had
    and are intent to deny me
    as you remove my right
    to celebrate myself
    and discipline myself.

  • Jason commented on the post, satisfy 7 months ago

    Cry for what you want
    And it will come.

    Grieving is the way out
    and the way in.

  • Jason commented on the post, institutions 7 months ago

    Bureaucratic little bastards
    teeth gnashing, gnawing into the air, latching onto anything that willy allow, even for the slightest amount of time, the opportunity to feast right through flesh till bones do crack and splinter,

    revealing that secretive marrow I held so dear.

    Before I knew it to be cancerous,

    feeding them. Sustaining them.

    Whether it metastasized because it sustained those greedy little gits, or those greedy little gits caused it to metastasize, no one will ever know.

    All the same, cancer is cancer. And it must be purged from the soul to be purged from the body-

    after all, they are attached, being one and the same in yin and yang.

  • Jason posted an update 7 months ago

    The world is so full of gray.

    My heart breaks when I’m around those who don’t see it, can’t feel it, can’t hear it, can’t touch it.

  • Jason commented on the post, employees 7 months ago

    Little bumble bees
    Listening to the queen bee
    fly into the night.

  • Jason commented on the post, somebody 7 months, 1 week ago

    Our differences make us the same.
    Our similarities make us different.
    There it is,

    written on the wall.

    For you to see before your lids droop deep down

    into the darkness you are scared to know.

    Kiss it. It will kiss you back,

    sweetly, smoothly,

    This doesn’t feel right this doesn’t feel right this doesn’t feel right.

    Don’t make love to one you don’t love.

  • Jason changed their profile picture 9 months, 3 weeks ago

  • Jason posted an update 9 months, 3 weeks ago

    Two hearted boy, the sun has come
    revealing all that is and was,
    after a long day’s night.

    There is no grief left, no Monday morning meditation to be had.
    There is only your sarcophagus sitting silently upon the threshold barrier.

    If anyone could open that stone death-blanket they’d see your ravaged soul fly out into the Tao,
    wanting, waiting, wishing for the opportunity for your next life. I’ve never desired to anticipate my next heartbreak much like you do now.
    As for your body, all dressed in black, as if it mourns along with anything else present,
    If, perhaps there is a girl bold enough to undress it, she will see the holes in your shoulder blades.
    Where once you flew, you’ve been stripped and hung upside down; how else will the blood drain?
    I’ve never desired to anticipate my next heartbreak much like you do now.
    She’ll see the life you once had and the life you have now, offering to prostrate herself to you, in hopes of infinite flights, ever lasting feelings, and serendipity among the stars.
    All this talk of infinity and you’ve gone cold. In a room that is kept cold by the silence surrounding it; two hearted boy, you’ve disappeared.
    Fly back down from that infinite loop of life after life, life after life, life after life
    Bring life into the room, invisible, unheard, and untouched life
    into the mouth of that prostrated girl who dares to reach with whispered words of goodbyes and adieus
    Vanishing into the abyss of time and space where you wait in want of your next life without having given a gift, your gift to this present life.
    Give your gift to this present life.
    I’ve never desired to anticipate my next heartbreak much like you do now.

  • Jason commented on the post, want 10 months, 1 week ago

    With burning passions, inner fire, and intense desire.

    I lay my hands on your torso.

    O, sweet dreams of your embrace surround me.

    Your facelessness speaks to my craving

    for the mistress I call Art.

  • Jason posted an update 10 months, 1 week ago

    Words are literal in one level of depth. They have the ability to be used to create a direct meaning within the context of what that word means. Words can be definitive in those contexts.

    And in another they are also visceral. They have the ability to be used to create feeling; to shape an experience created by the emotional connection established with the meanings of the word. Using words to shape such experience is what the higher form of writing is for me. This is where the art lives. This is where stories are told.

  • Jason posted an update 10 months, 1 week ago

    It’s not about being understood by others.

    It’s about clearly understanding yourself and being truthful to that understanding.

  • Jason commented on the post, manners 10 months, 1 week ago

    No.

  • Jason commented on the post, assaults 10 months, 2 weeks ago

    There was a time in my life before it happened.
    Before the viciousness of a gang-initiation welcomed explosiveness into my life

    I do not want to go back to that time before

    and I do not want to move to a […]

  • Jason commented on the post, secret 10 months, 2 weeks ago

    I’ve cried myself to sleep more nights than not in the past nine months.

    And each night, I take a deep breath and say to myself “Oh, I will dream tonight”.

    And I do, remembering them more and more often, no […]

  • Jason posted an update 10 months, 2 weeks ago

    I believe in guidelines, not rules.

  • Jason commented on the post, trap 10 months, 2 weeks ago

    I once asked through relentless tears
    “Does it get better?”

    Your simple “No” confirmed what I already knew

    and my heart broke even further from the front this time, to the back.
    Pinning me against the […]

  • Jason commented on the post, statement 10 months, 3 weeks ago

    Do you always do as you are told by the world around you?

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