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Why does the feeling of obsolete constantly haunt me? Why am I stuck in a situation in which I am most vulnerable. Am trapped in a prison of emotion and whether to share it or imprison it is a question I cannot answer. Its unsolveable. Many would look and shun at the sight of two people together. others are full of jealousy and contain no respect so they spread viruses with there tongues and as that virus grows it begins to eat away. Eating away at the picture of perfection, leaving only pieces and endless possibilities of what couldve been. But what if the picture was an optical illusion eluding the eyes of one who thinks he found his muse. its a game and everyone is a player and the rules are easily broken so the lover becomes the slayer. Your wishes turn into prayers, expectations were never there but the let down feels strong. I have fallen with no one to catch me. I saw the illusion of a safety net only to be surprised after I leaped after I was into it so deep I was falling all on my own falling into defeat. I can’t help but feel as if this feeling is unavoidable. As if it will always follow me around. Why am I cursed to dark thoughts of betrayal and infidelity. Maybe its a way of showing me my past ways and the emotions of those whom I hurt. Feeling as if the world is deceiving and everyone in it is as sly as the next. Am imprisoned in a cell my thoughts as my cell mates. Each beating on one another to see who will prevail, who will come out on top. My mind is constantly juggling thoughts of you positive, negative the attraction is ridiculous yet I can’t shake the feeling of someday being ridiculed.