bethamphetamine
Support yourself from the inside out. You are your own beams. You are the cross ties that hold together all the delicate parts beneath your bones. The rafters crumble and you are responsible for rebuilding the structure.
I discovered yesterday her capacity to endure. Amidst a crumbling world, she stood, up and out, and she sang her song to a mass of people disillusioned. I discovered that even from her knees she glowed internally, with the fire of a thousand suns. She looked into black clouds and dared them to blot her out. I discovered yesterday that this girl, all limbs and fragile bird bones, she was me. I discovered myself. I discovered.
Is that all we ever were? Did I create you solely in mind, to fill me up and give my emptiness a name? You existed as ghost. Left an indentation in my bed, but in my life you are only ever meant to be a story. Nothing real, no substance. Just the wind in my curtains, a figment of an imagination that needed desperately a tale to tell.