catidwell
in spite of, anyway, in light of, any how, justification, explanation, understand what i mean, what i am trying to say. the statement before means nothing, only what comes after. the past is over, what's left is reality.
i get obsessed easily. with food, with movies or music. with ex lovers, with information. my head and heart are often too full of things that do me no good. things i cannot change. things that i wish i could.
it's the end, the very last. it's the look you didn't give me the last time you stood in line at the security gate to leave. it's the way you didn't call me on my birthday, and the feelings of emptiness i was left with. it's what i know is true about us, but cannot accept still.
i got my hair cut today. i was looking around town for somewhere to go, and was telling my dad that i needed to find someone here to cut it. he suggested i check out this place near old navy. so i followed the directions he gave me and ended up at an old fashioned barber shop. it makes me laugh that he had no thought about the difference in my hair and his. just that his gets cut there, and why shouldn't mine too.
the color of my first couch, i was so hooked on this color. it increased once i realized that donna loved it so much, and that she had green pillows on her white couch. i made her a blanket that fall to match, sage and white. then, that winter, she and john changed the colors of the room.
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