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Some days my life seems pretty dull lately. I really only go to class and do school work. I mean, obviously I do more than just that. I don't go out much though. I watch a lot of stuff on hulu. I go for walks every day. I read a lot. But it still seems pretty dull. Maybe it's the lack of social interaction outside of class.
Warfare... warfare. Chemical warfare? Makes me think of chemistry then. I love and hate chemistry. It makes me happy that I'm not in science any more, but there's also parts that I miss. I love learning some awesome chemistry things, but overall I don't think I miss it.
We always look to other people for advice. Never to ourselves. We give advice to others. Never to ourselves. I think there are times when we don't trust ourselves to make the right decisions. We need others to justify our decisions for us. I think it's time to start trusting ourselves.
History always repeats itself, right? That's what we're always told? I agree. I graduated from high school and wasn't sure that I wanted to go into marine biology. Sophomore year of college I switched to Aquaculture. Graduated from college and now I don't want to do aquaculture. So I'm going to go into student affairs or something along that line.
Clover makes me think of St. Patrick's day. Which was over a month ago. Had some good times then though. Went downtown with some awesome friends and had a fun night. I'm going to miss those times in a week and a half when I'm not here anymore. I could use a four leaf clover for good luck right now though. UWF is in the process of reviewing my application and I'm really hoping I get in. If not though, that's cool too.
Deadbolt? Lock your doors? I'm coming up nothing. I guess I use a deadbolt on my life sometimes. I shut away some feelings and lock them up with a deadbolt, keeping them away from everyone, but myself.
These words are getting harder and harder to write about. Anyway, to get all my stuff home we were going to get a UHAUL trailer, but apparently you're not allowed to tow one with a Jeep Wrangler because it has a soft top, despite it having a roll bar. So now who knows what will happen. Time to become a minimalist.
What do you want me to do with intersection? I could mention that I'm at an intersection in my life. Different roads to go down that all lead to somewhere... too bad I have yet to figure out that somewhere. But really intersection is not leading me to anything else to write about.
Puzzled. That's perfect. I am so puzzled about what to do with my life. At this point I've accepted that I won't be attending graduate school in the fall, due to not getting in. It's not that I don't fit the criteria to get in, but that I applied late and my school hasn't sent my transcripts. I'm seeing this as a good thing though as it will allow me apply for other graduate school programs for the following year. But I'm still puzzled.
Classic rock. Classic cars. What makes something classic? I think it's something that we keep in our lives, that we keep coming back to. There's the classic things we like. Recently I've been rediscovering music I used to listen to all the time, but haven't listened to recently. It's the classic music I liked, and I can't believe I strayed so far away from it. Time to go back. It was part of who I was, and it's still part of who I AM but I just seem to have forgotten that.
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