dontreallyknow100
use me.
i'll let you , because i loved you.
use me.
i want you to, because i loved you.
use me.
i need you to, because its all i have left of you.
use me.
i loved you.
remember that i loved you
i stand on guard.
i stand for myself and for others.
i stand so i do not suffocate, and so i do not cry.
i stand so i do not lend myself and lose permanently.
i stand so i do not break.
i stand so i do not give too much and receive none at all
i stand so i do not lose grip
i stand because i don't want how to loosen anymore
i stand on guard.
upper year. have things in control. all knowing, understood. know the circles. know the people. know who to talk to . know who not to. know what to do . know what not to do.
lower year. unsure. set back. waiting around for something great to happen. waiting to understand. waiting to be an upper year.
oh the transformation. from upper to lower again.
from butterfly back to caterpillar.
affairs.
love affairs.
everyday affairs.
a business conduction
or,
a heart breaking.
a whispered secret,
or
a peanut butter sandwich on a picnic blanket.
who talked to whom,
or
who kissed whom.
who is
who isnt
what we are
who we are with
the affairs of men.
oh so simple
oh so complicated.