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I hate to admit it, but I think being a secretary would be a terribly boring job. I do like organizing things, but I'm better if I just fulfill my dreams of owning a small isolated farm. I want to become self-sufficient. Tomorrow will be a real test for my independence. My mom is moving back to Arizona. I'm 22, but I still am a little freaked out by the being left alone in a town I only moved in so I could be near her.
I feel as if I am sinking. Why I feel this way, I have not a clue. My mind is foggy, sloshing around before it takes a final thought then sinks into oblivion. I would prefer to be floating.
Yesterday evening I was watching this delightful show called "Guinea Pig". Anyway, this guy tests the strength of his body in many different ways. A couple involving poison. Poison ivy test, UN-poisoned Egyptian cobra, ants, etc.
I love deer. Sadly, since I have moved here, I have only seen about 5 in total. It surprises me that I don't see them every day! Back in Arizona, where I grew up, we had this herd of elk that lived around our house. We'd see them EVERY DAY. I miss them. I miss the bugling sounds they make. I miss Arizona, but can't leave Oklahoma.
I am not very successful in my life... so far. I want to accomplish little things in life. I would love to have a small farm and be able to be self-sustaining. I think that is not a huge goal, and I think I will be able to accomplish this one of these days.
When I was a child I desperately wanted to learn how to sew. My first lesson was to thread the needle. Threading needles is very difficult. Or at least it is for me. I remember sitting with my Nonnie (my father's mother) and watching her sew all sorts of pretty things. I dreamed to be like her when I grew up.