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the decorations hung, the lighting dangled off of the roof.
i swallowed hard walking down the stairs, the sudden and wild abandonment of getting married overtook me. i realized that i wasn't free anymore. in someway, that comforted me. i felt secure in that moment.
but that christmas was more than just magic and marriage.
HANNUKA IS THE FESTIVAL OF LIGHTS. first thing i thought of. hannukah song
but really:
acl. that festival. the point that you actually feel like you have some freedom. the one night. when we acted our age for one second. we actually acted 13. we stopped putting on our sophisticated mask and for that one moment... i felt free.
chief is a funny word. that is all.
that epic feeling when everything seems real. when there is a moment of trust and everything falls into place in a relationship. you don't need to pretend anymore. nothing to put up.... no things to pretend you like.... just you. and him. or her. as people. not as some barbie or ken. a real person in both of your eyes.
A divided between us. A thin line we try to break but we just get intertwined in it more. Letting go is our last resort.