isafab
Flustered and clustered mind, words running and disconnected. I can't bring myself to connect everything I feel and at the same time I can stop feeling. I wish I knew how to control when I'm feeling on the edge. Frazzled
I've always read the word TRANSLUCENT on make up products and I've always wondered what the hell it meant. From what I remember, it's supposed to make your skin glow to its best potential, hiding the blemishes and imperfections of the skin, yet showing off and blending to some of its best attributes.
How does a make up product even do that? I've remembered putting on powders and watching myself become a powdery yellow ghost in attempt to achieve flawlessness and I've always wondered about those radiant make up free models who don't have to care about achieving a natural glow on a day to day basis whilst I have to trouble myself with products that help me lie to others to achieve something that is but natural for others.
Is it really fair? I stared at myself with the powder on my face, checking for uneven portions of my skin then wondering if I actually have the right skin tone at all or if its just a lack of skill in my hands to work with the product.
And no matter what I do, my dreaded oily nose will never stop flowing with its ugly, unattractive layer of shine. Which brings me to wonder why girls who apply moisturizer and have shine on their faces from the moisturizer look drastically different from girls whose faces are just shining from their NATURAL oil.....
OH the irony, the natural oil that makes you look ugly in exchange for the fake shine you get from a moisturizer product that gives your skin the NATURAL shine you can walk around the mall in with a proud, held-held-high look. Also, when I feel most beautiful, I try to consciously walk taller....
I feel if I walk taller, people stare more. Sometimes I wonder what they are really staring at.