janinagnes
various things happens in ones life. everything can be looked at from various points of views. i feel that i am having various experiences at the same times. various is a funny world when you say it over and over again. even just in your head. i wish various things would happen soon. various things from various different departments of life. all good of course.
i saw her in a picture with a fawn. like every picture it was perfect. it showed her happy. she always seemed happy. and like always i wondered how she managed to do that. what made it possible for her to be so happy? and more importantly, why was i not that happy? i was really asking myself that.
there are things i would like to do a hundred times and things i would not like to do a hundred times. but maaybe once i have done them that often i want to do them again and the relationship to that number changes again. are we having relationships with numbers? when they are just being 1 all over again all the time. things happen once. and once. and once. but still think that we connect them to the past and the present and therefore a one becomes a different number. one and many at the same time. someone in physics would have a name for that. i just have the thought that maybe i have not been mindful of my ones. and one should always be the number that is closest to the heart. i would still like to look back at lots one 100 good things. there are a few that suit that number. 100 times that someone made me a surprise lunch at work. becaus the best things sometimes are good because they only happen once. marriage. for example is one. other things can happen twice or three times. but a hundred is a weird number. or maybe it is just a 1.