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The wool socks were supposed to keep the sweat off my feet but they didn't stop the aching of fourteen miles of walking. I could feel the arches in my feet caving in but I didn't stop because I knew if I did then I would never start walking again. Everyone would just leave me here in the middle of Wyoming so I held onto the back of the handcart and kept going.
Everyone gets chocolate for Valentine's day and I get nothing. I feel so sad. Not because I want just anyone to ask me out but because I know you are choosing him over me and everyone seems to be throwing it in my face today. You fight back. I love that about you. I sometimes feel that you are everything I want.
He sings into the microphone and suddenly the world doesn't seem so bad. People make fun of me but Alex Gaskarth's voice and lyrics just make me smile even when I want to cry my eyes out. Besides what would life be if you didn't have something worth loving and living for.
It's time to take charge. My life can no longer be left in the hands of others. It's time to leave these people behind, leave behind the people who've hurt me, who make me sick, who make me want to cry. I'm not myself when they're there and I want them gone. But they never leave so I'll do the leaving this time.
His eyes pierced me like needles. I just want him to love me but I hurt him to bad. Nothing can sew up what I have screwed up this time. But forgetting always goes this way, you have to slowly cut someone out of your life. I've never been good at quitting cold turkey.
You're revolting. Everything about you. Your fried, fake blond hair. The fake way you act. The way you try to break down all the walls everyone builds up. The way you deceive everyone. The way you treat your poor mother. The way you laugh even when you know you're being evil. The way you like to hurt people.
I was a coward. I backed away even when I knew this whole thing was right. I run. I'd rather run away then face the hard thing. I'm not brave. I only do what I know that I can and from everything else... well I hide from all of that because I'm afraid of looking weak. I'm a coward and it isn't fair to you.
The fragrance, it defines him. Sometimes when he isn't even near me, I smell what he smelt like when we used to be close and I think of him. It was the sweetest smell ever and I don't know how to describe it. The only word that comes to mind is his name.
The alarm in my head sounds. I shouldn't be doing this. But I press the snooze button and move on because somehow you are the one thing in my life that is real lately. The one thing that I feel is not going to leave me. I smile up at you because you get it. I can't help to reach up on my toes and kiss your sweet lips.
Pills. That's how she would do it. They were supposed to help her; help her to not feel so sad and to not be so hyper. But they didn't do anything. The ADHD pills made her sad and the depression pills did nothing. They could do something though. They could end this whole thing and free her from the energy and sadness.
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