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I'm sitting on the couch writing this. When I think of the couch, I think of the place I've been sleeping for the past seven months. I've had a problems with my room since falling into this awful depression, so I've been spending my nights on the couch... not too sure why.
Crouch.... I'm at a loss. The first thought that comes to mind is a tiger. Tiger's crouch before attack. Before they pounce on their next meal... time is ticking and I'm not sure what else to say... my cat crouches before running after my dog. Watching them go at it is entertaining. They have a love-hate relationship.
My birthday is October 3rd, right around the corner. Normally, I'd want to celebrate. I'd want to have a cake and open presents and see friends and family. Not this year. This year I'm not myself. The past 7 months have been hell. I know when my 21st birthday arrives, I won't want to celebrate.
I'm concerned about myself. Depression is no joke. I've learned that the hard way. Sometimes I don't know what I'm capable of... I haven't done anything to harm myself in any way but the thought has crossed my mind... I'm just stuck in this awful rut and it's hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel.
I'm not sure if I've ever had a mango. It's funny because I eat a lot of fruit, so one would think a mango or two would cross my path. On a daily basis, I have grapes, blueberries, and strawberries, and an apple. If prices are on my side, pears and grapefruits make the grocery list. On occasion, I have raspberries and blackberries, but once again, that all depends on the dollar amount.
Peanut butter and jelly! I miss peanut butter and jelly. I used to have PB&J all the time when I was a kid. Skippy's chunky peanut butter and Welch's grape jelly packed together between two pieces of Wonder white bread. I must have taken that for lunch everyday when I was in kindergarten.
I see this word and I think of meat. I think of the beef stew I had for dinner last night. It was delicious! Lean meat, cooked carrots, soft potatoes and green peas doused in red tomato sauce, yummy! Plus, there's leftovers. Score!
How funny that this word comes up. I'm back at school. That means reports, reports, and oh, yeah, a ton of reports. Academics are wonderful. College is a joy. Going to class, doing homework, spending 20 after 20 filling my gas tank.. I love it.
I wish I had it solved. I wish I knew how to fix us. I wish I could turn back the clock and do it right. I wish you didn't hate me. I wish we were still best friends. I wish I was there, with you. I wish I had it solved.
Back to the Future is sidetracking me from giving this all of my attention. Wait. The word is sidetracked... Back to the Future HAS sidetracked me from giving this all of my attention because the bell just rang and my time is up.
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