kgatseos
I've always wanted to be involved in one of those cool pictures where a girl or guy is standing on a ledge, or like in the middle of some psychotic fucking situation with so much going on that it is impossible to register the entire thing in one glance. Because the life i know is so mindless and boring there has GOT to be something else. something more important and the people in those pictures would never be caught up in a situation like that if they were't part of something bigger.
The single concept pounds at my head. Classy. what does it mean.
what is sex.
to whom should it mean anything
It's my body. just like any other body. just like you; or her; or anyone really.
So who cares who i share it with. Who cares. It's not my body that one will be lucky to gain access to. It's my thoughts, my mind, everything inside my head. That's what is special. not my body, for my body is the same body everyone else has.
Nothing.
everything.
We are simply nothing but we are also something.
Look, watch, pay close attention.
thoughts keep coming back. im stuck. the pain becomes irrelevant and the more that comes the more i love it. Happiness is unconventional and irrelevant. Butterflies and feelings of content become all that matter.. i miss needing someone. and i need to miss someone.
grow up. look alive. demands of the increasing population against me. i say get the hell out. its my life. i take center stage.
this is the time, when everything matters. when the only thing we have to offer is our identity. Nothing more. Trying with much difficulty to prove ourselves to the world around us. And "superiors" insist it is only a stage.
People ask me why i don't bring people over. Why i complain. why i'm a relatively mean peson. i blame my parents. i got unlucky enough to have each bad trait they do. They sunk they're teeth into me so deep, the damage is long lasting and irreparable.
Sing. Laugh. Every day can be the first day of the rest of your life. the best part is you dont have to wait for anything to happen. just go. Get out. Step outside the box and live.
Take that risk. that first step and jump into a whole other world.