laurpin
I could not believe it.. After all of the years of practicing, and imagining myself on top, at first, I got THIRD place. My whole life has gone into this.. I have nothing else. Who even am I without this? What do I do now? All I know is this.
As he went to speak, I quickly clasped my hand over his mouth, worried he would ruin this wonderful moment with what happened last night. There’s this happiness bubbling inside of my and I don’t want anything to ruin that, because what happens then? Will it be awkward? Will we hate each other? Or maybe.. Everything will be okay? I don’t want to take that risk. I'm scared, and worried, and I shouldn't be feeling that right now. I should be exploding with joy.
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