lr2k
we were the best we were diamond and we beat everyone else outta the water, didn't we? i'll never forget the time you accidentally put your knee in his face and he made a fuss and you got on the bench. you deserved the best and i miss you and i'll do it all in your memory.
not any more. chaos.
collisions and broken plates and bruised knees, not knowing where to find what you're looking for, waking up next to a cold mattress and knowing i have to cope for another day.
i'm icarus, i'm falling.
mud on our knees, we danced through the field and collapsed on top of each-other
i didn't want to ruin my jeans
i did though
took the ring you gave me to the pawn shop today.
i felt empty handing it to some stranger.
needed the money badly.
$50.
i’d rather have you back.
sorry sorry sorry forever.
wish i had offered to drive that night.
rather me than you.
sorry.
dreamt of you again.
i think it was the guilt.