mademoiselleyou
I aspire to be an executive someday. You know, someone who has engraved an important name in society, where people will eventually look up to you and be their model. Hopefully, through my perseverance in my studies, I will reach this goal.
I'm not a very structured person when it comes to organization. That's probably the reason why I tend to screw up most of the time. I just like ideas popping out of the blue and applying it directly to what I'm doing without even putting them in a right structure first.
Every scene in our lives is woven with true emotions, no matter how you say that you were only pretending. For example, in a certain scenario where we tend to deny how we really feel, we still exhibit real emotions because we can actually express how guilty we are even though we don't intend to show it.
I was alive then, however, I feel like dying inside now. Special people constantly remind me of how much hurt I cause them at times, but, they never realize that every time they tell me those words -- words that express how much I cause pain to them-- I feel really bad. This is because they don't know how much I also hurt whenever I make sacrifices for them that they don't even know.
I have blunt approaches towards people most of the time. That's probably the reason why I'm regarded as a little bitch sometimes. But I don't really care. That's how I am.. If I can't live with how you deal with stuff, better deal with mine.
I'm almost whole again. These past few days, I felt like a huge part of me was missing. Good thing I have special people around me to make me feel as whole as I was before. I can't wait to be totally fixed up.
Everything exhibits different shapes, primarily, because each object is unique in its own way. Everything is shaped into a variety of ways as well, be it an object or a human being because each has its own purpose. We shape objects in a way that we can utilize them efficiently. The same goes with humans. We are shaped into ideal individuals, primordially, by our parents. But as we grow up, we end up shaping ourselves into the persons that we want to be and coupled with that is each of our desired purpose in life.
I have never been wanted so much in my whole life. Imagine being loved by lots of people at the same time that it's so hard to choose on whose side I would prefer to stay. This is not only about intimate relationships but it's all about all kinds of relationships that I have including family and friends.
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