paulinasayshi
i am trying to stay connected with you. but i know for my sake and sanity, i should sever the connection. i should eject you from my life. i should learn to live without you here. this would be so much easier if you were less important. but because you have come to be my best friend, and so much more, i could never not be connected with you. i could never terminate this connection.
i need strength more than ever right now. right now, i've never wished i was stronger. i need to find the strength to move away from this all. to step back. to re-assess. to realize. to know what the answer is. what the right move is. right now, i need strength more than i need anything else. but right now, i have never been so lost as to where to find it.
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