pennylanedc

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I don't know how i can sustain this mental torment I'm putting myself though. I know he doesn't love me, he loves her, but still I try to run to him after all we've been through. Sure it's only been a few months but they were the happiest months I've had in years

magazines

I don't really like magazines any more. After working at Walgreens for 2 years I've read every little bit of trash that there is out there. Every once in a while I find an interesting mag that I really like, but really I much rather read a book or a comic! :D

side

I don't know what side to ever be on. My heart always says one thing and my head says another. I love him, but it's smarter to not be with him. I know this is the 'best' choice for my future but my heart is telling me otherwise.

half

Half of me, of my heart is moving away. I can't stand it. Mel, my best friend since 2nd grade is moving across country and there's nothing I can do but me happy for her. It hurts so much losing half of me.

comfort

Laying on my bed with him next to me. Having his arm around me and laying on his chest feeling nothing but him, his skin, his scent. Knowing that I could stay in that moment forever and just being happy and comfortable.

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Penny wrote about comfort
“Laying on my bed with him next to me. Having his arm around me and laying on his chest feeling nothing but him, his skin, his scent. Knowing that I could stay in that moment forever and just being ha…”

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