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He didn't even say goodbye. But I knew he was gone. He leaves me often. I never expected it but one day he returned. And I'm not quite ready for that.
I knock out. Find my peace of mind. In pieces. It's all hidden for me to find. In the dream world colors are all wrong. The peace doesn't last long. Until I'm awoken by the sharp ringing alarm.
The heart stopped it's bleeding. It's dried up not beating. The body is over heating. Maggots and creature of the earth. Start to feed and rebirth upon it's skin. Hanging loose and pulled up tight. Against the bones. Creatures make homes. Rotting inside. Where this person died.
You and I we're done and it's over I think I know that but deep down nothing is certain. Nothing makes sense these days when we're together everything is just in the moment. We live for the moment. And I cave. Into your arms
See here you stand up straight and you call out my name but I don't answer I fear you will see right through me. I keep on moving. Walking running. And there is something bittersweet in the night knowing. I stalled it all.
Torn up and beat down. Life was here and it tore at the core of it all. Her face. Her body. Her soul. Weathered. By it all.
You ripped my heart out it. Beating. You grasped my love in your hands. Trembling. I'll die for you my dear. To see it. Clearer.
The hand grasps things the mind cannot and I haven't yet grasped that concept. Like how my hand grasped yours and my mind cannot imagine grasping you in such a way ever again. I've tried and I've tried but I cannot grasp the way your hand is gone..
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