skythief
solitary existence solitaire computer one woman game variations therein variations on the daily routine but never with anyone else. solitaire is a lonely game. solitary existence is a lonely thing, but i only know how to shake it up, not make it new.
nothing worse than feeling obsolete as a friend
unneeded
unwanted
unnecessary
old
worn out
who cares?
alone.
the only one i trusted for so long and in so many ways
and now you just want to throw that away
like it meant nothing to you
like I meant nothing to you
but you're still the only one i trust
the only one i love so much
and yet i'm starting to see
that maybe you don't trust me
and maybe that's where we've gone wrong
but i can't help but think that after so long
you'd learn
but then who cares about me i'm just
some girl.
head honcho bitches that sit around on their asses all day doing nothing and getting paid a ridiculous amount. they should be made to work as the bitches in fast food joints for 8 hours a day at least once a week, just to keep them in check and down to earth with how life actually goes. and whoever's in charge up there had better take the elevator down and put more than change in our cup or else we are coming up.
the digital age of technology bringing people together connections connecting us across the world across the ocean one country to another but no digital picture no digital sound can create a real feeling on a real person on his skin or in his arms maybe in his heart but maybe it's just digital residue
structured days
routine
up at 9
(okay, maybe 10, sometimes 11)
open the shades
let in the sun
be happy for a moment
do some art
food
back to the art
chats
more art
good music
a cuppa hot apple cider
and the last of the strong sunlight
internet and movies
close the shades
keep out the night
lovey dovey talking
drift off to sleep
routine
structured days
let's try a different approach. i'll be on my back, head off the bed, and you can go in from there. all the way in, all the way back until neither of us can stand it anymore. we'll have so much fun baby, but the ending is the most satisfying part, isn't it? oh yes, a different approach.
whole total complete real existence self-actualisation fulfilment happiness
freewrite: on the heels of glory morning glory morning comes soft but soft what light through yonder window breaks don't play in the house you'll break the windows! open the windows let in some air fresh air of the valley of the meadow on the prairie free and wild waves like the water like the ocean deep and clear and free flying bird
wanderlust
down a sunlight road into nowhere in the middle of nowhere surrounded by farmland
across an ocean to lick a castle older than the house that's older than my country
into the deep blue sea to frolic freely with the dolphins and fishes
up a snowy mountain to ski straight back down to the bottom shedding clothes as I go
somewhere anywhere as long as you hold my hand
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