taydean2011
"Crush" That is how we explained our liking of the opposite sex in like 7th grade. Everything was so innocent then. We would never imagine sleeping with them. And we sure as hell wouldn't go up and talk to them. Now we see a guy or a girl and think "He/she is so hot. I would totally fuck them." Things have changed for the worse.
I failed as a daughter. I complain a lot. I ask for a lot. And I never seem satisified to them,
I failed as a sister. I didn't get to keep her heart safe.
I failed as a girlfriend. I snoop through his e-mails and find things that break my heart. It isn't right of me to do that to him. And though he forgave me and apologized for what I found, I still am not happy. I just haven't been happy.
I failed.
I have never seen a smile like his. It brightens my day. And though I don't see it as often as I would like, it still fills me with happiness. When he smiles I feel like all is right with the world and that I have met my goal of making him happy. His smile is rare, but it is as bright as the sun, and is all that I need to make it through a tough day.
I used to always want to ride a train. A real train. Not a subway not one in Disney world, a train that takes me from one place to the next. I don't know why I always wanted that but I did...Now I don't really care how I get from point A to point B.,.. As long as I get there in one piece.
The other day we were at the station to the T and these guys told my friend she had sexy legs. Then they asked us where we were headed. Being from a sheltered town, we laughed then ran like hell out of there. We were naturally petrified of the three men hitting on us. It was rather memorable.
I always embraced him. I loved him for who he was. And now he broke my heart. I have never been embraced by him. I have been hated and disrespected by him. I embrace being hurt. I embrace the heart ache I feel right now. I am ready to cry. I embrace my life, even if it sucks.
TJ. I can't even write anymore because the only thing that comes to mind when I see this is his name. He is been my beloved for three and a half years and I just need him right now. I need him to tell me he is okay and that I am making it better.
I went to my grandmothers funeral. It was heart breaking. My friend said "Ew it smells like dead people in here." i will never forget how angry that made me. I miss my grandmother every day. She was the glue that held my family together. Now we are all apart. It really upsets me that she is gone. it has been five years now and it still gets me every time January 31 rolls around...
I can rise above anything. People put me down because of my weight but I don't let it get to me. I can overcome every obstacle thrown at me no matter what weight I am. My mother raised me to be a strong girl. I know I am smart, and beautiful and I can do whatever I set my mind to. I believe that I can rise above any challenge that comes my way,