tayfish
scarves,
wear um!
lol. that's all.
i made a statement with my blood
red and running, like my mind
and without the words to stop it
it kept on going, endlessly
i wondered in my mind
what sanity i'd find
i wondered til i cried
and left these eyes so dry
i wondered
flowing and humming
whispering honey
flying and being
a bee that's believing
swept away
always kept away
as if i were that unwanted dust on the floor
as if i were only a particle
sweeping my feelings under the rug
i beg for control,
i pray to the god that may give it,
and let me believe it.
i am in control,
my body bends as i scream,
and keep quiet again.
the shaking reminds me
of what my lips won't say.
anything specific,
every detail of your lips.
everything specific,
studying your eyes.
eyes that draw me
and hold me.
cheap, like me.
i am worthless, like you.
no amount of green paper or silver coins will make me mean anything,
to anyone.
you are nothing,
and i,
i am nothing.