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cool.
you're gonna ignore me?
cool.
you're just gonna leave me here when we spent everyday together?
cool.
you're suddenly coming back saying i miss you?
cool.
i say i don't and you get mad at me?
cool.
you're leaving again?
cool.
that's just really fucking
cool.
'go ahead. do it. leave.' i whispered. he flinched at the words i said.
'GO. I DON'T NEED YOU.' i screamed at him, i couldn't handle it anymore. the lies, the chase, the non-official love. he obviously doesn't want me. he blinks at me for moment, and then nods slowly. he walked away with his head down. when i can barely see him, i dropped my body to the ground and cried desperately, ''please, just stay.''
the moment was real for a split second. the smile was real for split second. the thoughts were real for a split second. the innocence was real for a split second. it was all real, until she broke down in front of the world. letting the REAL out. the tears were real, the lies were real, but the existence was no longer real.
i went to go visit her. Rain was dripping off my face and my heart was beating.. fast. I was out of breathe but when she opened the door, i kissed her. I held her face, and she was stunned. I smiled at her and said " i love you. " She replied with a smile and a kiss.
i have applied myself to be a better person. you know, to stop judging others and all that shit that people always criticize about. i mean, i didn't just apply on a piece of paper and handed it to God. It's more of a commitment to myself, i have applied to try my best. so yeah, good luck to me.
The sound of the empty silent house is killing me softly. The sound of the dead person lying on the ground, scares me. The sound of the unspoken mouth of mine, lingers around the air. The sound of nothing, is the most ominous.
If i had to choose between another chance or to fix a regret. I would choose the chance, because everything that a regret holds, is a lesson. If you take that lesson away, what do you learn.. Who are you? What did you do that made you who you are today. Choosing a chance gives you another opportunity, another lesson, or another success.
i swept through the woods of the night. making a shuffling noise with my feet, trying to escape the cold air of the abandoned life. how i wish i could just fly. one day, i'll stop sweeping, and start flying.