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hooves.
so many hooves
pressing me to the ground
into the ground
one with the ground.
stepping out the doorway, he followed her footsteps with his eyes; to the lake. the snow crunched under his feet and the crisp air bit at his nose. so many reasons to step back inside, to continue on with his life, so warm, peaceful, serine. it wasn't his problem anymore anyways; he wasn't the one that hurt.
..yet, through the lies and all, he still cared for her. felt guilty that he was the one to blame for her depression, her self hatred, and her loss of innocence...
so he started to run, hoping he wasn't too late; hoping she hadn't already decided to take a swim..
haha.. member in class, at the end of the year, once all of our tests were done with and our teachers said "screw it, you all are on you own"? good times. i was playing this game, the first time you spoke to me and my heart droped, my checks get as red as a firetruck...or strawberry..that's what u said you liked right?! guess your more fond of roses these days: beauty on the outside, but full of spikes and poison.... common and unoriginal as fuck, too.
...not always beauty..
in fact, i find you quite stunning.
in the way you take my breath away,
without even knowing your doing so.
i can just look at you,
and fall;
crippled.
like my heart just caved into a black hole,
and there's nothing there but empty space.
not because of your looks,
or clothes,
but the memories that bubble up.
i just have to think of you,
and my chest starts shrinking in...
haha..
the many days during summer, when i'd wake up at 1 pm, i'd sit with my brother in the family room, and we'd play two separate games of solitaire. side by side, but playing separate. competing to see who could actually solve the puzzle.
that is, i'd play when i wasn't texting you..
...
goddamn it..
does everything have to remind me of those months?!
two hearts
living separate lives,
completely unaware.
by a stroke of luck,
one is pushed into the other;
and the two bind.
a shock, the two are stunned;
cannot believe that this could happen to them.
once this connection is made, it cannot be undone.
they will forever be changed, like it or not.
two hearts.
once whole,
but when you experience love,
will never be the same.
left in the dirt
all alone.
to do what?
i'm sure you don't care
as long as you don't get hurt, right?
you'd toss me aside with no second thought just to save your
pride.
frozen on my heart.
shows how cold i have become.
but..it drips?
i thought i was so cold?
i am still so numb..
but i feel the mass of ice...shrink?
how could this be?
i...
thank you.
thank you for freeing me.
only the warmth from your heart could melt mine.
i will forever be in your debt.
jump in,
feet first.
start something new.
be it a "..hi"
or something as 'insignificant' as eye contact.
some say a butterflies flap cant make a difference,
but, if it changes the course the present is currently on,
i say its the beginning of something new.
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