writinginthedark
**trigger warning**
How are you supposed to verbalize emotions that you haven't come to grips within yourself? I could say simply, "I was raped." But if I allow myself to be too casual, I risk people thinking that I am okay, that I have come to grips with the situation.
I'm not fine.
If I verbalize the proper storm of emotions behind the words, I risk myself being pushed to the brink of a breakdown. To feel, to smell, to hear that night again...to be reminded that I was....
That was the first gift he sent. It seemed innocent at the time as if he was sending me a bouquet of daisies. Only as the letters continued did I see the dark intent that started to harass me at every turn.