cascatanerina
Control is something that I work very hard to keep. I had to when I was younger I had a horrible temper. Now I'm often so controlled that I need to be induced into losing my control. I really don't like feeling that way most of the time. I'd rather achieve some sort of balance.
When I do lose control on my own it's often in the form of tears because anger is useless. Tears are too, but at least they aren't as destructive. If I lose control in anger it's usually really bad which is why I don't do it any more.
I keep trying to get my manuscript to it's final form so I can start an agent and publisher hunt; and I think NaNOEdMo National Novel Editing Month is helping me do that. However, my blog and several of my poems could use some editing, but I rarely edit them because I don't want to get stuck in the loop of always editing and never posting.
I'm glad I don't have to take finals for school exams any more. I do have to give them when I'm teaching.