inotherwords
I thought that said friction. I would rather write about that.
It seems like, when it really comes down to it, no one notices anything. We are too wrapped up in ourselves. It's so much easier to focus on OUR problems, OUR thoughts, that the feelings and thoughts of others become static noise. We listen, but we dont HEAR others. We are as a group shouting, all at once. How could we notice others when we are trying to shout over them?
I fear rejection everyday. I fear it so much that I lie to others to make them like me. I fear it so much that, to avoid it, I have destroyed lives, people's feelings and my own perceptions. Now I fear rejection from myself. I see all the things I do to others, how I seem to not care at all, and I have started to reject myself. I feel like a blackhole.