karolisha
the one thing that even shakespeare has questioned. it seems to be the most fundamental thing in the universe, nothing would be with out it and yet nobody believes it. why is that? do we really doubt that we are here right now?
the sound was like thunder in her ears. each little tap on concrete sounded like the crashing of the angry ocean. the staircase was her hell and with each step, he was getting closer and closer.
muse is inspiration. lately i've had no inspiration. my mind is empty. like a cardboard box. you could shake it as hard as you can. turn it upside down and pray for anything to fly out but nothing will. in fact you'd probably get sucked in. into a depression. you'd feel like noting is worthwhile and that creativity is a lie. it doenst exist.
russian. me. rain. pouring down. getting drunk of your problems. drinking in the ecstasy that comes with every shot. not remembering it the next night. letting go and falling.
Your punishment is severe. No friends, no phones, no internet. Now just go up to your room and think about what you've done. I don't want to hear another word from you the rest of the night. And don't even think about coming down for dinner, cause you're not getting any tonight.
Obsolete is how i feel at the moment. Like anything i say or do won't matter in a couple of days anyways. I could work hard and be the best me possible but in the end it'll all dissappear. Hopeless is the best description to this feeling. I can't even be bothered to have hope, it'll all go away some day anyways, so why waste the time now?
determination can spring from the most unlikely sources. from the hatred of an enemy, the admiration of another, or the indifference of another. you want to prove them wrong or prove them right. show them that you are an amazing person and that you will never back down
Connected. Plugged in. Its what my phone does for me. No matter where i am i'm always connected to my friends, my job, my school. It provides me with access to my life. my phone is my life, its also an addiction. all my connections are virtual. texting, chatting, skyping and whatnot. some days i turn off all the electronic and disconnect. provide a little balance.
Strength is what i dont always have. I gotta hold back sometimes and just not say it. But the line between being able to control myself and total insanity is never far. I can say everything that i'm not supposed to and then i just stand there with a dumbfounded look on my face. Did i really just say that? Was that really me? why didn't i stop myself? i guess thats one pair of muscles that are really hard to train.
it’s big. so big it makes me feel insignificant. but at the same time hopeful. if there is only one guy out there for me in the entire galaxy at least there’s a lot to choose from. i may not have met him yet but he’s out there some where. some where between the milky way and my house. i’d travel all over to find him. waiting is just too useless. i need my rocket ship. i'll jump in it and leave the rest behind. i don't care about it all anyways. i'll check every star, planet and meteor. a round the galaxy trip, but one day i want to be home again.