letusbelennon
I don't believe in unity anymore. I believe in discord and madness and the color grey.
Chivalry should never have existed at all.
Don't look down my shirt and pretend you believe in
equality, because I've looked down yours and your
manly breasts just don't inspire me.
I used to think if I loved you enough,
you'd learn to love yourself.
But you rubbed off on me
and no one got loved and
a lot of people got anxiety.
I thought you could love me god I can't love myself and fuck you.
Fuck you.
Fuck you.
I can't contain myself
Neither can anyone else.
I am falling
and exploding
and flailing
and failing.
Fuck it.
I don't know a damn thing.
I'm so tired and so lost.
I am frigid and terrified
and I make bad choices to hide these things.
I just want you to tell me you love me
One time.
I can't make you do anything. Just know that when I look into your face, a tiny flame ignites in my chest, and I'd do anything to make you smile. Or to kiss you. But I can't make you do anything.
You keep in within the white walls,
The golden alter,
Sinners and saints.
I keep it in the sunlight,
and the ridges of my fingernails and
The sky.
I keep it in myself.
It all comes down to experience.
But I'm too contained.
Teach me how to be like you.
They say the whole world is a stage.
If it is, I'm not destined for the theatre.
The lights are too bright and the audience never claps.
I sweat in the spotlight. The lamps wash out my face.
I'm not destined for the theatre.
And to think
That today my life could be half over
and I wouldn't know it.
Read the history books, children.
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