lildragon04
Everyday drains the life out of me. I feel like it won't be long before I'm empty. The things that are effortless to most people, are draining to me. It feels like a struggle to get through the day, like each task I do is sucking everything I am out of my soul. I hate it. I feel like one day there will be nothing left. I will be empty; hollow. Everything went away, down the drain with my broken dreams.
I do everything on a whim, it seems. Even when I try to plan ahead, when everything could go perfectly if I just did things how they were supposed to be done, I end up changing it all in the end because my stupid emotions get the best of me and try to tell me that I should do what my heart says at that very moment, even though I'm obviously going to regret exactly what I do. But I guess that's what acting on a whim means; it seems right in the moment, even if it is completely wrong.
I was made for a reason, I have a place in this world. I was created, I was made. I was put here so that I could be in other people's lives. I only hope my effect on other people is positive. This is what I was made for; I don't want to mess this up.
The way your words are strung together is so beautiful, so captivating. It is a complicated series of interwoven syllables, strung together in the most eloquent possible way. Every time I hear you speak, the world disappears.
I don't want to live a half-life. I don't want to look back and say that everything was half of what I expect. I want to lead a full life; a complete life. I want to find my "other half" and I don't wan to be incomplete. I don't want to be a fraction. I don't want to live a half-life, I want to be complete.
I don't know what I need to feel complete. I know I need God. I know I need friends, and family. I know I need love. But I feel like I will always be searching for more, like there will always be something missing. I am scared that I will never be complete.
The pain was sudden, it shot up fast. The car had stopped with a sudden jolt, and we ran straight into it. Suddenly, everything was spinning, I couldn't see, I couldn't breathe. In one sudden moment, my world crashed all around me.
I am not driven. I am not motivated, and I am not ambitious. I do not have any huge goals or dreams that I plan to pursue. I just sit and let life pass me by, not heading toward anything at all. And I fear that is how I will always be. I am not driven.
Sometimes I am easily pleased. Little things make me happy. A smile, a laugh, a look in to my eyes. A good book, yummy food. But sometimes I am always displeased. Always. It doesn't matter how amazing something is but it will not bring me any pleasure whatsoever. Those are times that I hate.
This life is a lease- it is not yours to own. Your stay here is temporary, only a short amount of time. You cannot buy your life on Earth, it is always a lease from the Lord your God. But, you can get eternal life in Heaven because of your Savior, Jesus Christ.
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