maddiedicaprio
Is that what this is to you? Just another one of your sports, something you can view as a spectator and not actually invest in? I hate to break it to you but I'm not. I'm a human being, with thoughts and feelings just like you. Although I hate it I am attached to you, there is no way I could possibly forget you unless something whacked me on the head real hard. Do you know why that is? It's because I love you. I actually do. With all of my heart, no, more than that; with all of my everything. When I say forever I mean it. Maybe not in the literal sense, maybe not for eternity, but I'll love you until I cannot love you any longer. I just wished the feelings were not unrequited. I wish you could look at this, you and me, in a different way than you look at everything else. I hate feeling like you look at this relationship as a daunting task, something that must be completed without any enjoyment and that depresses me to no end. Sometimes I feel compelled to yell at you, just so I can see you be emotional about something. I want to know what makes you tick, because I haven't got the slightest clue as to what would make you care. I wish it were different, if only I could leave you on the side of the road and never look back. I can not do that though, because I love you.
It's this never ending battle that we're fighting. This constant drain on our relationship. Every interaction we have is tinged with anger and repulsion. I wonder if it'll ever change. I hope it does, I want it to go back to you always putting a smile on my face, instead of always making me frown, it's just too draining.