mandeetuh
my mind is filled with all of my memories of you. from years ago, til yesterday just past 2. and i'm finding you or rather losing you these days. you didn't give me a reason, you just left me to grow old alone. and my eyes cannot cry anymore tears because you made light of all of my fears, all my fears i had so shamelessly invested into your heart. i should have known from the start you would eventually part from me; and i'm left with a montage of all we made and all that we could have been.
you'd figure i'd be over it by now, right? that it wouldn't follow me in the day when i'm driving around town, looking at all the old places we'd be at... it seems like it was way back. your silence haunts me in my sleep; i can't even dream right because you tear into my night's with the sharpest of knives and i'm left gripping my sides; you'd figure i'd be over it by now.
when it all comes to the end, when your eyes met mine to say goodbye. you kissed me with your hands, you opened up my saddened sky. i'll see you again, i'm sure. not in this lifetime, but up beyond the three levels of the heavens. in that final heaven i will find you in. so i wont cry for your flesh, i'll rejoice for your soul.
who's the mage whose major itinerary is making all oz merrier? who's the sage whose sagely sailed in to save our posteriors? whose enthuse for hot air ballooning has all of oz honeymooning? wooooo, wizn't he wonderful? our wonderful wizard! - i have Wicked on the brain. can't help it. i saw it last night. :)
atop my book shelf lay a sea of heart-felt words you've sent me. from happy to sad, anger and love, you send me you in these cards above. i've dealt many while you've only dealt few, and i hope your cards are good to you; but always remember no matter the size, the game is the same in all cards throughout life.
the way you make my head all the time. you never grow, you never make it right. you tangle up my brain, you tangle me in pain. and its a pain that i cannot change, i cannot cure. so i'm hoping that soon, when the moon becomes new, you'll become new, too, and untangle me from you.