rachelgi
It's not much of a new beginning when you keep getting the same words. Begin again? Is that the message? Keep trying? Even if it's a repeat, each day is a new beginning? So take the first step. Just take it. See where it leads.
New mercies every morning. A fresh start. The beginning of something. Some days, I'm so glad to leave the past behind. Other's, I linger in the moments. Savouring. Not wanting a new beginning. Just enjoying what is.
He stabbed her through the heart. Not with a knife or any other sharp blade but with his words. Reaching deeply into her soul and tearing, wrenching, pulling sinew and muscle apart. Gutted. Field dressed.
Angels come to mind. Burning incense to the Lord. Singing praise and surrounding him with fragrant praise. I'm glad that angels like incense because I certainly don't. I hate smoke of any kind. Good thing I'm not an angel.
In a flash. A second. Before you even realize what happened... I always heard it but never really understood how life can change instantly. Cancer. Boom- life instantly changed forever. Permanently altered just like that.
What is exact? Precise? Clear? Accurate? I don't know exactly. An exacting day. An exact phrase. Exactly what I need. Pinpoint perfect. Is that even a thing?
I'm done with being tired & depleted. Feeling fat. Puffy. Sad. I'm done with the loneliness and second guessing. I want more. I want the dreams that linger in the hidden depths of my heart. There is more. Unexpectedly more. I need to be done with this before I can reach for what's next. I'm closing this chapter and writing a new one.
I already did this word late last night. Tyrant. Who wants to be one? Who wants to live with one? Not me, that's for sure. It feels like a big, Goliath of a word. Hard. Bully. Big and overpowering. How about trying on leader? Or love? Something softer? Kinder? Less bully?
You yell and scream and call names. Demand your way. Dig deep. Push on the bruised spots. Making the blue purple. Sometimes it fades to green but then you start again. layers of colour. Pretty in a rainbow but not a human. I used to love you.
Lisa Bell. Ring the bell. Shout your words. Steal my snacks. Push me down. Lisa Bell. Steal my power. No more. Don't stand in my way. Don't make me feel small. I'll eat my own snacks thank you very much.