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roberta commented on the post, welfare 1 month, 1 week ago
i guess i see it now. i see how i wanted to change you with love. but i forgot about my own welfare. i forgot to care for me.
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roberta wrote about the word scar 1 year, 5 months ago
slouching beside you in that booth, flipping your arm over, you tell me before i even see the fault: a scar across your wrist. looked like you were trying to kill yourself. a piece of glass–an accident–and i’m kissing you now in your car, snowing, waiting for my own car to warm.
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roberta wrote about the word palette 1 year, 5 months ago
what an odd mix to come across. and now, now it all makes sense: a hiding, a blending, a weird shade here and there. i excused you, and when i didn’t anymore(when i wore out) you left because you couldn’t hide those ugly, ugly truths.
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roberta wrote about the word view 1 year, 5 months ago
and even though i’m bundled, feeling trapped and childlike–a puffy coat, mittens half-out of full pockets, a scarf to the chin–even though i can barely move, the view still widens.
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roberta wrote about the word edge 1 year, 7 months ago
i sat the apple cider on the edge and with a smile absolutely insisted that you take it. the topic was harsh but warm in the end, and we got through.
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roberta wrote about the word romantic 1 year, 7 months ago
flecks of color bumps on the windshield grab my attention, and the music is so, so loud. we wiggle in our seats in a silly, no-regret way. dancing with you always brightens me. i’ll probably never ever say no when you ask to go out for ice cream. i don’t even care that i romanticize [...]
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roberta wrote about the word half 1 year, 7 months ago
“room for cream, please,”
you half whisper
and i stop fumbling for the lid
and we talk briefly
about poetry, ’cause i’m leafing through some
you mention taking a class
i say we should together
because strangers
always seem less
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roberta wrote about the word playground 1 year, 7 months ago
snot dripped out his nose and we all shrieked, running away. he would throw his hands up and growl as we ran under the wooden structures. i think we were really sort of scared. i really do.
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roberta wrote about the word average 1 year, 8 months ago
i’ll give, give, give and find the nearness of reaching out.
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roberta wrote about the word bars 1 year, 8 months ago
such a mystery, the way you nonchalantly asked me to that bar. your roommate joked about coke being available–2010 vintage on tap. i was 20 and if you only knew me. i was so uncomfortable. shifting, bumping your knee, declining.
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roberta wrote about the word salt 1 year, 8 months ago
sprinkling them around
compliments that is.
as common as the salt on the snowy street
part of me wanted to be taken away
by kind words, by warm glances
the world always seemed slower while it snowed in cleveland
and of course i was with you
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this is lovely.
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roberta wrote about the word secretary 1 year, 9 months ago
because i was afraid of being at a 9-5 desk job, wasting away and maybe then getting married and having a kid and building a fence and then cleaning, cleaning, cleaning. i can only see the progression as tragic. i dream of mobility, not necessarily stability.
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roberta wrote about the word deer 1 year, 9 months ago
you know that really excellent moment in the car when you get all sorts of comfortable, slightly singing with the music, slightly thinking about something or someone, slightly tapping the wheel? well i was there and then BOOM, so was the stupid deer.
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roberta wrote about the word lock 1 year, 9 months ago
i’m so tired of locks without keys and famously i get so distracted. life is grand when it has meaning and sometimes i buy into the lie, that terribly tempting lie that everything will be okay if i have a job where i’m not trapped. and then i feel guilty because even though my talents [...]
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roberta wrote about the word manager 1 year, 9 months ago
today i was told i’d be the manager. i want to laugh and cry and pray. that’s my reaction.
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roberta wrote about the word root 1 year, 9 months ago
her name was marissa and the roots of her hair never seemed to match the ends. we all made fun of her. after all, she wore a c cup in the fourth grade. i wish i could go back so i could write about her differently now.
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roberta wrote about the word skeleton 1 year, 10 months ago
because i got that letter
2 years after you decided to not talk
so raw and sincere
i saw flesh and muscle where before i saw
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roberta wrote about the word cigarette 1 year, 10 months ago
the january-iced parking lot was a great place to grab my hand. in the other you nonchalantly smoked and turned very carefully to avoid getting smoke in my eyes. i loved you then, and held on very dearly. i hope now i’ll let go.
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roberta wrote about the word plague 1 year, 10 months ago
it consumed her as she saw them acting so saccharine, so fake. and there was the slapdash catching up, hurried bits about jobs and housework and hobbies. she judged them with every evasion of the inexcusable truth, the truth about them leaving without telling her goodbye. bitterness was the plague, and she knew it was [...]
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roberta wrote about the word expecting 1 year, 10 months ago
that climbing, building, steady moving forward in a song, right before things break, right before the catchy chorus, right before the best part, is sometimes just as lovely as getting there. i won’t give up expecting for fear.
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