brie
He was in my local match box
waiting to be lit
i was his flame
pure virgin oil
we fucked on the first night
then I told him I wasn't interested
because I was too interested
broke his heart for a week
there should be a sign
don't feed the locals.
My period was a little late this month, I just freaked out, so on this thanksgiving day I was thankful to be bleeding haha. I'm on the pill but people make mistakes. and by people I mean me.
Major Lasers will be used to cut out my heart. I love him with all of it and it pains me to think he feels other wise, I want to spend the rest of my life with a man who can't see how in love i am with him, the only way i can show him is by having my major heart surgery preformed lasers only.
the solution to this is love. I love him and that's all that matters it seems to be the solution for everything literally and that seemed so cliche 5 months ago but now...its an answer
we should move forth, move forward...because we love each other. I hate your mother and she can't move forth with us and I can't move forth with you without a ring, and I can't have mixed children with a man who comes from a racist family.
completely a dirty thought. I've never even finished, well not with someone at least. he doesn't know that. but the sex is good. I ask for it consistently almost everyday so i guess he is doing something right. oh god i just said all that...
but that's what he does to me. No apologies.
I have a massive amount of feelings for you. a huge mass of them are unidentified. I think I love you, I say it, because you’ve said it, and it feels right. I know I don’t want to be without you, but I want to be with a mass of other people. I want a mass of guys to love me, and need me but I only want to love you. I want to have my cake and eat it too. I want to fucked by them and loved by you. Massive emotions for a fickle heart, that’s ridiculously undeserving of you. sometimes I think I deserve more, you don’t give me flowers or chocolate and you make me pay for my own things, you don’t tell me I’m beautiful… but you love me, and pull the covers over me when you think I’m cold. I remember this one time you told me I was beautiful. you stroke my face, and look me in the eyes. your honest with me, even when it hurts. your afraid I’ll tire of “us” one day, and I’m afraid I will too one day. but I’m a fickle heart, with selfish ways, and I want you now until I don’t and I love you now until I won’t and then we can say it was nice and we had fun, and we loved, and i was your first, you were mine. Mass of mine.
I have a massive amount of feelings for you. a huge mass of them are unidentified. I think I love you, I say it, because you've said it, and it feels right. I know I don't want to be without you, but I want to be with a mass of other people. I want a mass of guys to love me, and need me but I only want to love you. I want to have my cake and eat it too. I want to fucked by them and loved by you. Massive emotions for a fickle heart, that's ridiculously undeserving of you. sometimes I think I deserve more, you don't give me flowers or chocolate and you make me pay for my own things, you don't tell me I'm beautiful... but you love me, and pull the covers over me when you think I'm cold. I remember this one time you told me I was beautiful. you stroke my face, and look me in the eyes. your honest with me, even when it hurts. your afraid I'll tire of "us" one day, and I'm afraid I will too one day. but I'm a fickle heart, with selfish ways, and I want you now until I don't and I love you now until I won't and then we can say it was nice and we had fun, and we loved, and i was your first, you were mine. Mass of mine.
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